I've been so busy with my research work, could not read all of your stories.
No big crush updates for me. I tried (once again
) to get over him, but some things never seem to ****ing work. I've been paying my crush dust (no staring at him, not paying attention to everything he does and stuff). But today he said "Hi!" to me, and he never usually does that and you know what
He even asked me something about my research work. At PE classes he kinda attacked me this time as well, but guess who fought him back this time (
). IDK, I just feel so comfortable with him physically, like with no other person I know, so that wasn't really dangerous.
Later today, I finished class earlier and waited in corridor. There were nobody except me at that time. He went out of another classroom, so we could see each other, but when he came I just pretended to stare at my phone
I may overreact but I think I was like so rude
Now I need to be cute and polite with him tomorrow, so I could pay him dust again starting from next week.
IDK, I'm just so bipolar. One part of me keeps convincing all these "signs" and thinking that we could belong together
ARTPOP, then another part of me keeps being real and telling myself that he is straight and nothing's ever going to happen, so I should get over him as soon as possible. IDK.
i haven't let myself to fall in love for a long time 
I'm sure she wouldn't care
