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I suffer from anxiety and mild depression.

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Here if anyone needs to talk.

I used to self harm. I still suffer from Anxiety but it's been a whole since I had the urge to do it. It's been almost a year since the last time I did it so that makes me very proud. Y'all can really get through it. Keep ur head up!

I have depression, social phobia and ptsd. I was molested at a young age and bullied and sexually assaulted by some of my cousins. One of them broke my arm when I was 10. I started off self harming by doing eraser burns at 13 and didn't start cutting till 19. I attempted suicide at 20 because I finally came out of the closet to myself. I stopped cutting a little over 2 years ago. I still get the urge sometimes but I don't want to go down that path again. But I'm doing a lot better than I was.

That's amazing.

Any progress is good progress. I'm glad you're overcoming everything that has happened. You're a lot stronger than most, remember that. If you (or anyone in this thread for that matter) want to talk, vent, anything, you can hit me up. I'm not a licensed practitioner but I'm a good listener.

I was recently prescribed Lexapro and Klonopin for my anxiety and depression, I feel kind of like a zombie when I'm on it, and sometimes angry, but I'm not sure if that's just my body gettin used to medication or not.
But I used to vomit and cut daily all throughout high school, my lips were destroyed and it was so bad. I haven't thrown up on purpose in over two years, but I still cut a few times a month when I can't handle how I feel.

I'm sorry, hopefully it'll improve after you've used it for a while? Or have you asked the doctor if you could be prescribed something else instead maybe?
It's good that you were able to battle through that, I know it's really hard sometimes and cutting can seem like a form of relief, but please try and avoid doing it. I know that's not always possible, and don't beat yourself up about it if you do, but try and focus on something better. Take your mind off of it and don't focus on the negativity, try and put all your stress and anger into something else. Like maybe painting, or song-writing or story writing? Or even just writing down a journal can help sometimes. .

My mom has serious clinical depression and anxiety

I used to think my mom was just lazy because she never left her room or the house to go out and do stuff but then one day it all just clicked that she was just really sad all the time.

and like it trips me out because sometime i just dont understand WHY or HOW people with depression get caught up in their thoughts like that. like why is it so hard for them to like get rid of all that negative energy.

It's hard to compare a situation with another. I feel whatever I dealt with when i was younger and how many years had to pass until i decided it was the moment to put an end to it were the most exhausting and emotionally draining years of my life. Long story short, everything at home when i was a kid was a mess plus spending a very good deal of my high school years being bullied and teared apart by people who i believe were way more hurt than i was and then having to go home and deal with an alcoholic and emotionally unstable family made me a complete wreck back then. Loosing my father because of the same situation made it all even worse at some point.

Eventually, after craving a better life for myself, I searched and found my own way out of those situations and found different approaches to therapy and many other amazing stuff. It was a long road but I'm completely grateful for having the opportunity of living all that stuff. It made me who I am today, it made me strong and more courageous, compassionate towards others and it teached me how to love and accept myself for who i am.

It gets better. Asking for help is the best we all can do when sometimes the weight gets to heavy for us to handle. We are not alone fellas.