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Originally posted by BLaCKPoWeR
I want so bad to be assertive and defensive, but it is just not in my spirit to yell at/physically attack anyone (aside from my brother) because I'm mad. It's never happened. It would take extreme circumstances. 
Even if I did turn AHP whenever I felt someone tried it a little too hard, I'm still bony and weak. I've never been trained to fight and I haven't fought someone in my life. I wasn't about to fight some football playin-ass *****. 
**** me. |
Only people I've ever fought were siblings and that one bitch that sneaked attacked me at the club because I apparently resembled the girl her guy was cheating on her with, but I wish a ***** would. I'm a sweetheart, but if you try me too much or put your hands on me first then something just comes over me. It's horrible. Like one time I was going to beat this bitch's ass because they came to our New Years party and had the nerve to come at my brother incorrect so I was going to handle the **** for him. I was drunk as hell, but tell me why it took my brother, my cousin, and my boyfriend at the time to hold my 5'2'', 115 lbs ass back.
I'm a laid back, chill person too, but it's okay to defend yourself. It's not in my spirit either. It's such a negative energy being assertive sometimes and I hate that, drama, and confrontation and try to avoid it at all costs, but you can't allow yourself to get ran over either.
I hate you. Anyway, to be honest, I'm the same way. I try to be that easy going person and that's truly who I am, but sometimes I let **** get to me and I just let it build up inside. I think it's just because I know people are joking and they're my friends and I don't want tension between me and them because of a stupid joke I took to heart. I get over it eventually and move on.
