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The “Pretty Little Liars” star explains, “I started self-harming when I was a junior. I would withhold food or withhold going out with my friends, based on how well I did that day in school.”
She adds, “I didn’t know what was right and what was wrong, so I think I created this bizarre system of checks and balances to create order in my world. But it really backfired.”
The pressure Bellisario put on herself became unmanageable.
“It was about wanting to please my father and mother and wanting to be perfect to everybody,” she tells the magazine. “I just thought if I ever expressed [to my parents] any sadness or anger or anything that’s going on with me, they would disown me.”
The actress continues, “I kept a lot of it bottled up inside, and it turned into self-destructive behavior.”
“I felt this sadness, and I thought if people really knew what was going on inside me, they wouldn’t want to hang out with me,” says Bellisario. “So I tried to keep it light and funny. I became imprisoned [by my eating disorder and self-harm]. And it was something I fought with.”
