For my entire life I've built this "masculine persona." With guys I always talk about girls. Recently since college started, I would try hinting at it, and I hope some people think I am gay, but I haven't had the courage to tell people. Me, my boyfriend and my best friend all went out to the movies. I was supposed to tell my Best friend that I was with my BF, but I never got the courage to do it. My BF was kinda sad, but I definitely hinted at. Going to the bathroom at the same time (), holding hands at the theater, touching thighs, paying for my BF at McDonalds etc. But I never flat out said it because I'm terrified of what he would think and if he would still be my friend, event though I know he would.
So tl;dr version, the worst part about being gay is destroying the straight "reputation" I have going with my close friends.
For my entire life I've built this "masculine persona." With guys I always talk about girls. Recently since college started, I would try hinting at it, and I hope some people think I am gay, but I haven't had the courage to tell people. Me, my boyfriend and my best friend all went out to the movies. I was supposed to tell my Best friend that I was with my BF, but I never got the courage to do it. My BF was kinda sad, but I definitely hinted at. Going to the bathroom at the same time (), holding hands at the theater, touching thighs, paying for my BF at McDonalds etc. But I never flat out said it because I'm terrified of what he would think and if he would still be my friend, event though I know he would.
So tl;dr version, the worst part about being gay is destroying the straight "reputation" I have going with my close friends.
You'll feel much better once you actually tell him.
), holding hands at the theater, touching thighs, paying for my BF at McDonalds etc. But I never flat out said it because I'm terrified of what he would think and if he would still be my friend, event though I know he would.
that's not even short, that's average 
