Nnnnnnnnnnnnnn do you mean closeted?

Honestly that sounds exactly like me and something I'd do, sans the loud part and the part about having a friend ask a guy out for me. I always stalk my prey before awkwardly deciding to strike up conversation and then deciding against it out of nervousness.

I should probably get some help for my social anxiety.

I told the dumb blonde girl that was on my dick that "I don't wanna do this anymore. Being friends with benefits is a mess and it won't work out for me. Hope we can stay friends though." She was like "lolololz why? "

Nnnn my school has a lgbt club but i'm not joining it because some of the gays at my school creep me out

I usually try to figure that out before my crush forms. One of my crushes was still in the closet, tho.

I usually decide not to pursue a guy based on some really minute detail that's really more of an excuse for me not to have to set myself up for rejection than an actually valid reason. I'm trying really hard not to do the same thing with my current crush's unabashed love for a certain pop girl I don't like.

Yeah, I went once in my senior year and it was mostly just all the weird kids who lurk in corners and I was like "ehhhh"