Been there past February... If u havent experienced it you cant even get close to how it feels. At first there was that huge nothing.. I literally felt nothing. Then I refused to go to the funeral and all till 2-3 months later I had a panic attack and it happened to be on a Sunday which was the day of my friend's passing..so many emotions that I cannot explain. I definitely felt confusion, pain, anger(lots of it) and a feeling of something missing.

Omg, I'm so sorry. That sounds awful, I hope you feel better now


I don't even have a lover, but that would be the worst thing ever. I sometimes have nightmares that involve me finally finding the love of my life and then she dies Stuff like that makes me so sad, I can't even imagine