Well I've had a crush on this guy since I was sophomore in high school, but unfortunately that was his senior year so he left... To the New England area for college

(I live in California). But fortunately he is cousins with one of my best friends so I would hear stories of him during junior and senior year... He doesn't know I had a crush on him, but at the time like 4 other friends of mine found out (caught me checking him out

) and the thing is, I KNOW for a fact my crush would check me out during the his final high school year. I SAW those eyes. And he saw mine... So the feeling was secret, untamed and mutual.
And just this past summer when I would hang out with my friend, his cousin was home for the summer so I would see him on occasion. It was awk because he would be friendly and say hi but ahh... What could've been... There's no way anything could happen... I'm moving, and he left already for the year.
...I'm still hoping next summer my first summer fling will finally happen.