Originally posted by Sazare

Sigh. I'm starting to consider your advice but honestly I can't think of a way to explain away what I did that wouldn't betray what a lunatic I am.

Originally posted by Sazare

Okay so I don't expect or really even want anyone to read this, I just need to vent.

So like, on Grindr there was this really hot guy (like a 9/10) who's like three years older than I am and he actually seems fairly intelligent without being like stuck up and, like me, he's actually looking for a relationship, so naturally I decided that I was in love with him, but for like the last two months I could not work up the courage to talk to him because, on a good day, I'm only a 7/10, my life is a mess, and I am terrified of rejection. So anyway, ~4 weeks ago he deleted his profile and I was devastated for no rational reason. But then about a week and a half ago he created a new profile and I decided that I would work up the courage to talk to him. I had him saved as a favorite and slowly I was building up my confidence but then last night I saw that it looked like he had deleted his profile (all the profile info was cleared out and all that was left was a pic and he had no online/idle status) and I was disheartened again, but I figured I'd just message the ghost account so it would feel like I was actually talking to him so that I wouldn't feel quite as nervous about actually talking to him should he reactivate his profile again.

I said something like "Nooooo you deleted your profile again " followed by "I was going to work up the courage to talk to you eventually " and then went to sleep. But like an hour ago I reopened Grindr on my phone and saw that he hadn't actually deleted his profile and he actually got my embarrassingly cloying message and he responded "I'm here" so I did what any thinking person would do and went nuclear, changed my picture to some generic picture and deleted my profile out of sheer embarrassment.

I am aware I have many issues. I'm going to listen to some Sarah McLachlan or something.

Originally posted by Gotham Aurora

Originally posted by Lipton

Hot ass mess.

Originally posted by Sazare

I guess it's encouraging that he didn't block me. Tbh I would have blocked myself. Still think I'm going to die of embarrassment in my sleep tonight tho.

(In case you can't tell I'm very melodramatic.)





What's worse is that I know he sometimes comes to where I work, though I personally have not seen him there yet. I'm afraid he'll eventually come while I'm working and recognize me and then I'll have to move away and start a new life as transient in Reno, living under an overpass or something

Originally posted by Sazare

Okay so I don't expect or really even want anyone to read this, I just need to vent.

So like, on Grindr there was this really hot guy (like a 9/10) who's like three years older than I am and he actually seems fairly intelligent without being like stuck up and, like me, he's actually looking for a relationship, so naturally I decided that I was in love with him, but for like the last two months I could not work up the courage to talk to him because, on a good day, I'm only a 7/10, my life is a mess, and I am terrified of rejection. So anyway, ~4 weeks ago he deleted his profile and I was devastated for no rational reason. But then about a week and a half ago he created a new profile and I decided that I would work up the courage to talk to him. I had him saved as a favorite and slowly I was building up my confidence but then last night I saw that it looked like he had deleted his profile (all the profile info was cleared out and all that was left was a pic and he had no online/idle status) and I was disheartened again, but I figured I'd just message the ghost account so it would feel like I was actually talking to him so that I wouldn't feel quite as nervous about actually talking to him should he reactivate his profile again.

I said something like "Nooooo you deleted your profile again " followed by "I was going to work up the courage to talk to you eventually " and then went to sleep. But like an hour ago I reopened Grindr on my phone and saw that he hadn't actually deleted his profile and he actually got my embarrassingly cloying message and he responded "I'm here" so I did what any thinking person would do and went nuclear, changed my picture to some generic picture and deleted my profile out of sheer embarrassment.

I am aware I have many issues. I'm going to listen to some Sarah McLachlan or something.

Originally posted by New Way To Bleed

You live near Reno?

Originally posted by alstrom

Originally posted by Sazare

No.



Glad to know I'm not the only person who's done something like this. But I do feel better than I did last night. Liz Phair made it better. Liz Phair always makes it better.