That is what I initially thought as well though. It's nice to have a panel that is able to see all the aspects of a contestant, so in result they're viewed as a whole - and from an amazing panel, might I add. So in a way, this could bring a contestant hope, but it's also easy to slip into paranoia over it. Which is the rutt I'm in right now.
I've considered it was easy in the beginning being that no one had any expectations and I wasn't expecting to win two damn rounds in a row. And now after falling so low, and conveniently after getting a 6th permanent judge, all I can think is "gotta win, gotta please, gotta be who they want us to be" and that damn insecure voice wondering if being myself is even enough. Not that I was trying to portray anyone else, I was just too encompassed in focusing on too many different aspects. I can't tell whether it'd be a fairer loss if I went home with an honest to goodness entry rather than with one I put my blood, sweat, and tears into.
To channel my inner Beyoncé or to channel my inner Rihanna.
To channel my inner boyonce or my inner Edge
Which I know the perfect response is to "just channel your inner Kitt!"
That is what I initially thought as well though. It's nice to have a panel that is able to see all the aspects of a contestant, so in result they're viewed as a whole - and from an amazing panel, might I add. So in a way, this could bring a contestant hope, but it's also easy to slip into paranoia over it. Which is the rutt I'm in right now.
I've considered it was easy in the beginning being that no one had any expectations and I wasn't expecting to win two damn rounds in a row. And now after falling so low, and conveniently after getting a 6th permanent judge, all I can think is "gotta win, gotta please, gotta be who they want us to be" and that damn insecure voice wondering if being myself is even enough. Not that I was trying to portray anyone else, I was just too encompassed in focusing on too many different aspects. I can't tell whether it'd be a fairer loss if I went home with an honest to goodness entry rather than with one I put my blood, sweat, and tears into.
To channel my inner Beyoncé or to channel my inner Rihanna.
To channel my inner boyonce or my inner Edge
Which I know the perfect response is to "just channel your inner Kitt!"
I can see why you would think that and why you would be freaking out. That's what is exactly making you screw up. You are getting in your own way, second guessing yourself. Do you second guess yourself when you post a comment? Do you second guess yourself when you make a thread? Do you second guess yourself if your opinion could be considered flamebait? I'm guessing not, so you need to channel that. You are your own worst enemy, so you need to win yourself over. Be confident in yourself and what you submit and let it show to us judges. You are Kitt, you are woman, you are feminism. Work that. Take a look at the challenges you placed first in and the comments, how did that get you number one. Compare that to this most recent challenge. The competition is still early on, but if you continue down this road your top member quality can fade. In my honest opinion, it'd be better to be eliminated with in entry your proud of not the one you put so much work into.
What's with all the Kavish-esque essays between Kitt and Matty
I'm trying to calm her down, she's stressing herself out. I'd write essay's to calm each of you down if needed. This game is stressful and makes you question yourself as member. You think you have what it takes with 13 others thinking the same thing, competition can get tough.
Is it bad I don't really stress out and question over my entries, I just write whatever I feel and send it. It's been working out so far I usually think about them after I send and worry but I'm comfortable with all my entries so far.
I can see why you would think that and why you would be freaking out. That's what is exactly making you screw up. You are getting in your own way, second guessing yourself. You are your own worst enemy, so you need to win yourself over. Be confident in yourself and what you submit and let it show to us judges. You are Kitt, you are woman, you are feminism. Work that. Take a look at the challenges you placed first in and the comments, how did that get you number one. Compare that to this most recent challenge. The competition is still early on, but if you continue down this road your top member quality can fade. In my honest opinion, it'd be better to be eliminated with an entry you're proud of not the one you put so much work into.
I agree. These are things I really need to keep in mind - in and our of this game, actually. I'm not sure whether it's a good or bad thing that my biggest enemy is me and not anyone else. I'll take it as a good thing for now. Thank you, Matty.
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Do you second guess yourself when you post a comment? Do you second guess yourself when you make a thread? Do you second guess yourself if your opinion could be considered flamebait?
However, we still want you to be yourself. If you start getting into the mentality of "gotta win, gotta please, gotta be who they want us to be" then you lose yourself as a member. The perfect example of what I said is Edge. Last cycle, during the beginning, he was strong impressing the judges (but me I'll add). He then slipped a little and lost the essence of what made him him. He then regained himself and began turning in great entry after great entry even impressing me. From my point of view, in the beginning he seemed a bit crazy and cocky, but after his slip he brought his crazy back but I no longer saw cocky. He ultimately stayed himself all the way through, but changed these little things based on our opinions in which made him the winner.
I need to work on this.
I'm stressing out, too tbh. This competition has me questioning a lot of things about myself and how I'll fit ito this site in the future. After almost winning the second competition, and then dropping so far, I feel like there is something I'm missing.
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You are your own worst enemy, so you need to win yourself over. Be confident in yourself and what you submit and let it show to us judges.
So true. I am my own worst enemy in this competition.
I do second guess myself a lot, and I am hard on myself, on this site and in real life. I'm pretty insecure.
And it's funny, because "gotta win, gotta please, gotta be who they want us to be" is actually the mentality I had for the brand and smiley challenge, and they were my lowest placements.
I usually think about them after I send and worry but I'm comfortable with all my entries so far.
These are things I really need to keep in mind - in and our of this game, actually. I'm not sure whether it's a good or bad thing that my biggest enemy is me and not anyone else. I'll take it as a good thing for now. Thank you, Matty.
