Yes. I remember having the biggest crush on a guy in 6th grade. We worked on projects together, talked on the phone a lot.. he was totally straight but I always wanted him so bad.. I think he knew. I remember I was moving away and I watched him ride his bike away from school on our last day after middle school. I moved that summer and I was sad thinking I wouldn't see him again.
But I moved back home about a year later and we were in high school together but none of the same classes. And then he was a jock and I wasn't.. so it wasn't "cool" to talk to me anymore. But we'd occasionally see each other and he was still gorgeous and I still wanted him.. he would smile at me if no one else was around.. I kind of got the impression that there might have been something there.
Then I left that school and never saw him alive again. He OD'ed on heroin shortly after high school and my last memory of him is staring at his lifeless body in a casket at his wake. And I always wondered if he ever really knew or what he felt.
