Tbh, my outlook on life is always changing, sometimes I'll be having a conversation with a friend or a family member and they'll say something so simple and it's like damn. It really makes you think. I'll listen to a song and the lyrics can be about going after what you really want in life and it makes me want to do so much more in my life, but there are definitely things that make me stop and think and change the way I look at life. Sometimes I can be going through something and then I'll read something in the paper that's tragic and I'll realize that what that person is going through or whatever makes what I'm going through look and feel so small. Life is really something else.

I've always have had an easy life in the way that I've never have gotten deny anything from my parents but at some point things got rough because of some family drama, so I stated acting out and missing school. It wasnt till we moved that I met someone who changed my life and the way I see things. This person took me to church, taught me how to be humble and helped me focus on my future. Now I don't let the bumps on the road get me down and I only focus on the positive. I'm not a jerk and I enjoy life without doing things that might damage my health.

Yes, after I was depressed for a year and a half that changed my outlook dramatically. Just that I got through it and came out stronger on the other side made me appreciate life much more then before and realize how hard you have to work for what you want. I'm also more sensitive/empathetic now to people who are having difficulties of their own. It made me realize how much inner strength I really have. Also after my father had a stroke and survived, but is now permanently disabled, I see the effects of that and him struggling every day and that obviously changed a lot too.

I've always had a troubled life whether it's being molested as a child and raped as a teen. Because of that, I didn't really value life whatsoever. I was honestly waiting to die. The thing that really changed my outlook is a near death experience. I've actually had a couple, but this one in particular just completely changed everything. I was in a wreck and the injuries I sustained were horrible. I had a traumatic brain injury and I was in a medically induced coma for a week. They had no idea whether I had any severe brain damage and if I would even wake up and if I did whether my life would ever be the same again. I got lucky because nothing was severely wrong with me. I endured some brain swelling, but they were able to manage it enough to the point where it didn't hurt me. I was beat up, but I was going to make it. I was lucky; however; after sitting in the hospital for a month. I contracted pneumonia because I was stationary for so long and I'm already susceptible because I have Sickle Cell Anemia which suppresses your immune system and I don't have a spleen. It's a double whammy. It got progressively worse and FAST. Two weeks after I was diagnosed with it I coded and they have to resuscitate me.

That honestly made me realize how much I actually didn't want to die. I was ready to give up at any moment until that moment actually came.

Anyway, The Sandy Hook Massacre really gave me a new outlook on children, parenting, life, and even Christmas. We never know when our time is and unfortunately we live in the world where it doesn't matter how innocent and young you are. As a woman, I want to have children, but I am genuinely afraid to bring a child into this sick and twisted world. I love my family. I love children and I love the holiday season for the very fact that it allows me to spend time and create memories with both. I love seeing the smiles on children's faces every Christmas morning. I live for that. My mind is pretty ****ed up right now because I can't fathom the thought of these children's lives being robbed of them 11 days before Christmas.

Getting a job as a host at a restaurant has had a pretty big impact on my life, because I always have been so inward and socially awkward especially around men but now I have to always be in constant contact with others and I think it's helped me break out of that shell.

Everything tbh. Especially my uncle's death today. He had some health problems, but no one expected this and it's devastating

I don't know exactly what is was that changed my outlook but something did. I used to be a asshole and would be really blunt, curse people and teachers out for trying it, and even make fun of people whether it be the handy cap or others. But I can't remember exactly what it was that made me stop and look at myself I cleaned up real quick people who try it with me in the real world I just pay them dust. Since fighting or arguing really doesn't solve anything. I don't make fun of the handy cap nor do I laugh when other people do. Idk I was just a major asshole as a kid thank god, I'm not anymore when I see other people do it, it just annoys me to death.

Religion.

Some things have, but only for like an hour or so, then I'm back to my old ways.

This!

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