Ironically, I've had two serious boyfriends and neither of them broke my heart - it was actually a non-boyfriend who did.
This guy was like my first major teenage love thing. We used to stay up for hours just talking, but not like friends would - you know how couples do? We'd talk about so many things, literally all night. At parties he would act as if I were his boyfriend, and we had a couple of intimate moments, just like cuddling in bed and stuff. Anyway, to cut a long story short. His birthday is two days before mine, so he invited all of us round, and he walked in with a guy and introduced him as his boyfriend. I'll never forget that day because he couldn't look me in the eye. Then, two days later on my birthday, he rang me and asked me to delete his number.
My friends always tell me he's an absolute douche and I should get over it him. It happened 3 years ago when I was 16, and even to this day I sometimes lie awake and think of him.
I probably sound so stupid, but trust me, when you've been in love/had strong feelings for someone, you manage to find good in them. I still have his number on my phone, sometimes I get tempted to call him. I know he was a douche to me, and probably still is. But I don't think I've been the same relationship wise since our thing, I've become so frigid and whenever a guy starts talking to me and flirting, I don't retaliate even if they're really great.
I'm such a mess
but tbh to get over a broken heart you been to have to really dig deep in yourself and find out exactly who you are and what you want and your real feelings
