Well girls? Ever been in a dysfunctional relationship? How do you mend a broken heart??
I'll start off with mine...
Met on a night out.. got on with each other etc etc. Then we started dating, it was all going so well for about 2 months - he was the first guy I truly fell in love with. We were there for each other at all times, I thought I finally met the right person & that I would never have to be alone again (as cheesy as this sounds). He was so romantic & I would hear those 3 words (that changed my life..) constantly.. how foolish of me to believe him
It was towards mid November that we started slowly drifting apart. He would say that he had too much to study so we would only see each other once in 2 weeks (we live in the same town).. he'd always ditch me for his friends, suddenly I did not know where I stood in his life. When I talked to him about that he would always shout at me & then ignore me for days
Then the day came when he wanted to have the talk.. (online, he didn't have the guts to meet me in person.. or maybe I was not worthy of his presence?) Anyhow, he said he needed space (on top of the 2 weeks during which we had not seen each other..) until after Christmas cause he needed to sort out his feelings for me. Having heard that (once again, online) I just thought it would be best to end things & so I did. I was in the supermarket & I almost had ****ing meltdown, I don't even know how it happened, it was so embarrassing. Couldn't hold the tears in my eyes it was brutal.
The next day one of my friends told me he was on Grindr & that he had already met someone else. But wait.. I thought he loved me? How is this possible?? Work keeps my mind off it but when I get home it call comes back. I'm stuck I've no idea what to do I feel hollow & alone listening to 'Impossible'. EVERYTHING reminds me of him, its unbearable.
Quote:
And you were strong and I was not
My illusion, my mistake
I was careless, I forgot
I did
And now when all is done
There is nothing to say
You have gone and so effortlessly
You have won
You can go ahead tell them
Tell them all I know now
Shout it from the roof tops
Write it on the sky love
All we had is gone now
Tell them I was happy
And my heart is broken
All my scars are open
Tell them what I hoped would be
Impossible, impossible
Impossible, impossible
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Anyhow girls how do YOU deal with breakup? Got a special playlist? Ice-cream/chocolate? What's the worst breakup you've ever had?
P.S. Didn't mean to make this about me, just want it to be a nice discussion although it did feel good sharing this with total strangers
I'm not out so I guess that's why.
