So this is probably really stupid, but whatever. This starts in middle school. I got my first real crush on a boy, but he did not like me back. At all. He even made fun of me and it made me feel like **** yet I kept liking him (mess). Then randomly a couple years later he started to like me back. He was really popular and I was not, at all. (This sounds like a teen movie, I know
) I obviously got really excited, but he had a girlfriend. They stayed together for around a year, and the entire time I knew he liked me and not her, but she didn't know. Rumors started up that he liked me and she became angry and upset and ended up screaming at me after school one day. When the new year started, me and the boy didn't have any classes together and never saw each other around school so I began to forget about it. Him and his girlfriend broke up. I started hanging around with a new boy I had a crush on and it turns out he was friends with the old guy. I found this out when I went to his house and my old crush was there. I froze and felt like I was gonna throw up. I thought he had forgotten about me so I kept my mouth shut and didn't try to talk to him even though I wanted to. I got all depressive about it, thinking of how much he used to like me and now he doesn't care at all. Well, it turns out he still liked me as well but I didn't find that out soon enough because we graduated and went separate ways and both ended up heartbroken and miserable.
This entire thing took place from 6th grade until we graduated high school so it was years and years of this ****.
He ended up going to military. He called me a few times but I didn't pick up the phone because the moment I hear his voice I'm like stuck and can't say a word. I think he is somewhere in Africa. But the bad thing is I still compare every guy to him. I just can't get over him. We were together for 6 years.