My mother confronted me again. She asked about my sexuality and said this...
"I already told you this but I don't think YOU SHOULD GO DOWN THAT ROUTE AND/OR LIFESTYLE"
If you are gay? you are gay? I kept it quiet and didn't say anything. One of my cousins must have told my dad about what I've said on Myspace and all. And then he told my mother. According to my cousin, I had a boyfriend. Well....
Before I spazzz.....Do I wanna live this lifestyle...**** no. I don't wanna be this, but I am.
so now I have some options...
1. Come out of the closet, break my dad's heart, just shock mom really (she don't mind)
2. Live a life without love...(this way I don't have to be unhappy without being with a man and I don't have to live with a woman)
3. Or I could be something I'm not and date a girl. (not really date though :-\)
I'm so sad. I don't know what to do. I even saw some college project on sexuality. I didn't get a chance to look at it though. even though I wanted to.
My life officially sucks. I'm thinking of taking route two I guess. Just be on my own the rest of my life without love. All I really need is some friends I guess.
But whatever. You gotta make your parents and especially GOD happy right?
sigh....