I'm frustrated with everything, sexually and emotionally. I'm ****ing done with everything.

I'm frustrated that I can't go to the US for college because it's too late to study for the SATs.. and that I can't be with the one I like..

I'm frustrated with my social life/relationships.
I feel like I care much more about people than they care about me, I'm sick of putting so much effort into friendships when I don't get anything back and I don't want to be the one who always has to initiate things.
I wish I could just leave it and wait for them to make a move, but I know they won't and I'll end up alone.

^that's so sad
I wish I like my friends like you do
But they're just stupid assholes who will never understand me and my ways