I was hit by depression when I was 14/15 and it was really really bad, now looking back I have no idea how I made it through. I ended up going to therapy about 3 months after it started although I resisted it at first and was extremely embarassed about it. My mom would drive me there and I wouldn't even let her tell my dad, we would just say I was going to the 'doctor'
It's been around 5 years since then. My depression has lifted although I now have anxiety (panic attacks) and I hate it. Whenever I go out, for the first maybe 15 minutes, I get so nervous I feel like I'm gonna **** myself and I have to force myself through it. This happens 90% of the time I go out
I just want to be comfortable and 'normal'.