I'm in one right now. The sex is amazing. I've known him for a year and a half now. We started out doing it no strings attached, but I eventually developed feelings after a while. I've been going crazy on him, blowing up his phone and causing him to get angry and block me. I've expressed to him how much I've wanted a relationship, and he doesn't want one. In fact, he's dating girls because he says "he doesn't want to be gay anymore, he wants to be straight". I'm so hurt about that.
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Ever since I've become too attached to him, he puts rules on the sex and sometimes only wants oral done to him. He still wants to be buds (if I calm down, which I usually can't), and he claims to still care about me, but he doesn't let me talk to him unless he contacts me first now. I hate waiting for it because he's so busy, or he claims to be. My feelings are so strong, and they're not going away anytime soon. I can't let him go even though I'm not happy with how he treats me... and the feelings may never be reciprocated. I have accepted that I'm emotionally attached. I miss him so much right now, haven't talked to him in days because it's not what he wants. He says he will contact me, but it's usually too long of a wait for me. I don't know how to change things.
We're both guys btw. I'm 20 and he's 47.
Any advice on what should I do? And what are your views on ****buddies? Have you ever had one, and how did it go?![confused](http://www.atrl.net/forums/images/smilies/images/smilies/confused.gif)