Can I vent everyone?
Like Harmonic Dreamer said, I've felt different my entire life. I had girlfriends in middle school but the relationship never went anywhere (one broke up with me because I wasn't kissing her or something... but we're good friends again now anyway). I also have autism but it doesn't affect me AT all socially, but I do think of things differently than most people. But I think of it as more of a positive than a negative. I get along great with everyone, I'm shy.
Anyway, I didn't begin to even think of the possibility of being gay until like a year & a half ago. Previously, around the time I was 13-14, some kid kept calling me names but never even said anything to my face. But anyway, I met a guy around 15-16 years old, we talked for a year & got close but never dated. I've cut almost all ties with him, but
first time I ever felt like that. Also, the schoolyear before a different VERY effeminate gay guy would always flirt with me even though I was "straight".
It's strange. Some people are going to be completely shocked when I come out & others will have already known. Some people can easily tell about me & others can't at all.
My family will be the most shocked. I think they'll accept me though. My mom will take a long time to accept it in her mind.