The songs that really supported me was "Don't Let Me Get Me", "Family Portrait", "Just Like A Pill", "Nobody Knows" and "Save My Life".
I know I am only 17 but still... I have already experienced enough pain and conflit with family and high school to last me a life time. I was raised up in a household where witnessing your mother get beaten and ocassionally myself, being neglected, verbally abused, emotionally abused etc etc. I started having so many problems at my old school like with friends, keeping up with school work, and being bullied.
I still remember when my parents split. I still remember the night they did and it was violent. I remember playing "Family Portrait" to keep me calm, if P!nk was able to become the woman she is today with the same experiences as me I should become just as a great man myself? It really affected my daily life at school to the point I had only a few friends. "Don't Let Me Get Me" really explained my story as that "troubled kid" who really just wanted someone to hug and someone to listen. I really just viewed the song "Just Like A Pill" as losing friends and family instead of losing a lover. Save My Life is quite obvious, I wanted to be saved from the small box my soul was crammed into, to be free and to be with the world. Nobody Knows is my alltime anthem though, which I still connect to deeply to this day, nobody understands that I just need somebody to love and care for me, nobody knows that the person I portray myself to be isn't the one that is portrayed behind closed doors, and nobody knows I just want a hug even when Im screaming and yelling on the top of my lungs.
My mother sent me to a new school (same town) and my life improved so much with friends but not so much with family. I was still living with my father who was neglecting me and my siblings extremely. I still remember that asshole throwing my dinner outside
The bitter jealously. This year I moved in with my mum (who was struggling herself since she got barely anything out of her divorce, resolving problems with a boyfriend and living in a small flag at the time) and my life has improved dramatically. I have so many friends (Not being pretentious but I am pretty popular I guess, and everyone from my old school try suck up to me everytime they see me
) and I do so well in school. My mother and I moved to a small town which is 30 minutes away from my old town so I still catch the bus to school and my life couldn't be better. I don't have to see my Dad all his side of the family, I have a best friend who knows me inside & out and I love school life!
So thanks P!nk (even though I have grown up with you my entire life thanks to mum), without you I couldn't have turn to anyone better for inspiration. You being the brave and courageous woman you are not willing to bite back on your tongue, has helped me and so many people become a better person!
