ok so here is the gist of my situation lol with some background info to maybe help? idk:
so my mom derives from a wealthy family, however ever since she married my father and moved to Canada with him back in the day her family shunned her off completely. my mother has explicitly admitted to me that her relatives have often practiced dark magic and even volunteerly allowing spirits to posses them. (for example my mothers cousin used to go to the river at nigt to purposely get possessed and have conversations with a "beast")
however my mother claimed to not partake in these things as she had the chance to be raised by her shunned brother who taught her about religion.
(mind you my family is shrouded in mystery. I have an uncle who was called to work in the USSR, murdered in the USSR (framed as a suicide using his own tie while laying down in bed
) in modern day Ukraine, his wife's mother was apparently a part of the organization (plz use the letter to the right of the letters I will write on your keys. I cannot write the organizations name directly just because I'm scared AF ...it is the "JFV"/ now look at the letters to the right of the letters I wrote.)
he had a daughter and she is missing we have no idea were she is and if shes even still in russia.
anywho thats just a miniature blink into my family background (like we have so many tragedies and things shrouded in mystery its really interesting yet freaky too.)
anyways growing up i've always been surrounded by mentions of the occult as factual things. not as fictional or intriguing things seeing as these things have actually benefited and destroyed my extended family (uncles, cousins, aunts , grandparents etc..)
throught out my entire life as far back as I could remember I'd have glimpses of a memory I can no longer fully recall. I also have a recurring dream which falls into my memory. (so both my subconscious and my awaken consciousness are pointing at some event that mind mind is trying to block).
for you to understand what I'm about to share you need ot also understand that my mother has almost never treated me as her son but more so as just a vesel to pass on the next generation of her lineage and family. she has shunned me, hated me and been cruel to me most of my life. although at times I can see she tries to manupilate my emotions by acting motherly she immediately breaks from the fake act returns to being mean. you must also understand that my mother is very manipulative and very ambitious in life. when she was shunned from her family's wealth for marrying my father she sort of sought to create her own (although she struggled a lot).
so the memory I have is of me and my mother being in an extremely crowded disney land amusmant park, my mother exchanges conversation with a very tall man. it feels like we are a the center of the park, she speaks to him for a long time and then literally hands me over to him, he holds me by the hand and we walk away. I can remember an overwhelming feeling of fear and complete confusion. this is the memory.
the dream is of me being pushed in a cart at an airport and being handed to that same exact man but I'm in a airport luggage cart . when I searched the definition of this dream and called a local dream translator she told me a cart represents "love" when two ppl are in it, but it can represent "sex, alienation of one's self from family, and a feeling of distancing your past self to the person you have become" this intrigued me because it reminds me a lot of the splitting ones mind caused through MK Ultra (an experiment which has been exposed as being real and practiced in McGill university's psychology department in Montreal...a city I would visit and not remember dozens of times in my youth.
what has pulled me into ever thinking there is more to this memory and dream to it just being a coincidence was the fact that when my father and mother divorced my mother started getting in good favor with her wealthy family. they started supporting her financially and buying her tickets to fly out and visit them on her own (often times leaving me not with my father but with a friend of hers) ...
my father was never really "close" to me but not because he hates me or something...its as if he avoids me because he feels a guilt. a guilt for what? he was never a mean person, never abusive to me NOTHING.
one night I decided to pay my dad a visit and stay over at his place. we spoke about my mother and he started to diss her...obviously I am her child after all no matter wat she is my mother, so I defended her,and then my father started crying, like sobbing...my father is a strong man who never shed a tear in his life.well not in front of me at least. he told me that if he were to tell me something about my mother that I would despise her entirely so that got me worried...but soon my worry turned into fear because I kept begging him but he would just sob more and more and would cry and beg God to forgive her and himself and then I started trembling lol
I kept asking him all these crazy stuff like "am i adopted?", "she wanted to give me away?" what is it? "did she cheat on you and gave birth to me? " like wtf is it, did she sell me? do black magic?" what lol!
lol!!!
he then told me that i am not ready to know any of this but when i kept insisting on "did mom let something happen to me" he would stay silent for a while as if he wanted to say something and then say "your not ready"
his is what i think might of happened:
many years ago i told my mom how i wanted to go to an amusement park and how i always wanted to go to disney but that i never went as a kid and she told me that we just never had that type of money...this was weird because I am almost 100% certain we did
but this is the freaky part thats legit bringing tears to my eyes as I right it
a year ago i kept nagging her about how we never went to disney because i showed her that viral video of that girl who was so happy bout going*
she then said "we went" and then she kept looking at the damn screen as if she got caught or slipped something she shouldnt have admitted to and avoiding my eyes. then i said "ummm no?" and
she started laughing like a crazy person!!
and changed topics immediatly, I kept trying to discuss it but I was scared to ask some more because she would laugh so hystericly it started getting freaky.
I feel like I might have met a handler or been given to someone for some time. this is why: recently as mentioned in my other post a page back I have been contacted by the berlin, london, toronto succesfull photgrapher in a really random and extremely persistent way. I am not some out of the ordinary looking guy lol I don't feel like I have something that screams "model". I checked his photography for his german magazine photoshoots and some of his stuff is dark and overtly sexual ina dark way. he knows and worked with tons of ppl in the industry and I was surprised and almost overwhelmed however when I spoke to my mother about this she almost anxiously/quickly told me to meet him and sign with him. as if she already knew of this and was waiting for me to tell her
(so f***in scary) and now that I think of it could this photographer guy be the same guy in my memory and dream or someone who worked with him? could I have been sold to someone or whatever at a young age and the contract has come to its date?
also it is important to notice that both my grandparents died and left behind great lots of land in spain, france and morocco to my mom making us pretty rich, her relationship with her family has become so secretive yet so strong its soo weird. how did she go from being completely shunned to being the only child who inherited all the land?
someone help me!! I'm legit shaking of fear as I write this. also sorry at how long this mess is omg its too long lol!
GLAMAZON, BORNBRAVE, zOLVINSKI i need you guys to help me understand things and put certain puzzle pieces together
also if you want to know more about my family's tragedies or background and what not I can elaborate if this helps you to help me
also sorry for all the grammar and what not. its 3 am, im scared AF and tired lol
ALL IN ALL I think it could be a mix of paranoia. just thought I should share just to see if there was an explanation to certain elements of all of this mess 
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) to pull the plug. Heartbreaking. And yes, I believe they were summoning the Jezebel spirit in honor of Queen Elizabeths JUBILEE. No coincidence Whitneys middle name is Elizabeth.
so scary 