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Discussion: Archived: Random Thoughts (#5)
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that is for sure rape
you said you didn't give consent, and he did it anyway
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Yeah, I do think that was rape. I'm sorry that happened to you 
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Please delete this. This isn't time for jokes.
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Oh Asa  Well you shouldn't blame yourself for what happened, he took advantage of you and it was obvious he knew you were intoxicated due to how you were acting.
Besides this situation, you also know your drinking limit it seems so that's a good thing in general.
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Originally posted by Nemo
 hiOk so you guys know how my uncle died a few weeks ago... After his service we had like 50+ people come back to my house (my uncle knew like everybody, I literally didn't know at least half ot the people who came  ) and so there was like a lot of food and beverages etc... WAIT. I have to go kinda off-topic but not really okay so I think I've probably talked a few times in here about alcohol and how I don't drink and don't want to drink even moderately because I know myself well enough + the fact that there are countless alcoholics on my family... Well that night I slipped I guess? I just started..drinking, idk, but before I knew it I was drunk af. It just felt so amazing like I have literally not felt that at ease and that "happy" in over ten years, I swear. Like I walked downtown in my town after everybody left and just started talking to so many different people and like I just felt like all of my problems were gone.
Since then I have gotten drunk twice again, and each time I got even more wasted than the time before (one of the occasions was my best friends 21st birthday so like I guess it makes sense right? But the events that took place that night/morning are a whole 'nother story for another time d). Anyway so the second time I got drunk I drank alone. I vaguely remember walking all around my town and stuff and I remember at like 3am downloading grindr  And I ended up having somebody meet me where I was at the harbor in my town and they picked me up and we went back to their house (obviously this is so out-of-character of me to do as you guys know I really don't like hooking up w strangers at all). I can't remember his name, his face or where he lives, and I can hardly put a face to him. I don't remember almost anything, and the things I do are so blurry and vague because I guess I really drank, like...a lot that night. I remember us being in his shower and a couple of other things. But to finally get to the main reason I am explaining all of this... I remember there being a point where I just wanted to stop. Something switched in my mind or something, idfk, but I remember asking/telling him I wanted to stop and I wanted to go home... And I remember him not stopping. I remember vaguely that I was going on and on about something about how I really can't do hook ups or have sex with people because of certain things. I remember him being on top of me as I was pleading with him to stop asking me something along the lines of "I can't tell, is this real or are we roleplaying?" and I remember telling him him clearly that no, we were not roleplaying and that I was being serious, that I wanted him to stop-- and he didn't. (Mind you, by this point there had been no penetration involved). I don't remember how or when things ended, but I remember lying on his bed staring at the ceiling and my eyes were teary and I was going on and on about something, but I can't remember what exactly it was. I remember him bringing me my clothes and shoes. I remember saying something like "wait- you put your penis inside me didn't you?" and he was like "yeah I did". After that he brought me back and I just remember walking a few blocks home (I didn't want him knowing where I lived) feeling miserable and unsure about everything. Then I went to sleep for like half of the day.
So like.........was I raped? I don't to say I was raped if I wasn't. Like I have no memory of him brutally pinning me down of forcefully penetrating me. But I know for a fact that everything I mentioned above did indeed happen. I know that I was begging him to stop and that did would not and did not stop. I don't know for how long or anything too specific. When I woke up I was not experiencing any unbearable pain or anything? Ugh idk. I'm so confused and I'm just pissed and annoyed with myself for even touching any alcohol in the first place because I told myself I was never going to let myself risk skewing my judgement with alcohol. So like yeah I'm sorry this was such a long post and if you read it all the way through thank you. I really needed to vent about this because up until now I have not mentioned this to a single person. I appreciate y'all a lot and how so many of you have been so helpful through different situations in the past. 
Edit: Ok same no this was not a reply to the post above mine.
Also, I don't expect everyone to read that all bc it's so long sorry.  |
Get yourself checked ASAP. You don't know what you've caught. And stop drinking.
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there is no such thing as a joke when the subject is rape
delete your acc
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Originally posted by Legit
me: rape is horrible, what is this world
also me: but was he cute
edit: this joke came out too early didn't it
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you making this joke reminds me of this documentary called the Trouble with Evan, a story about a canadian 11yo who was treated like dirt by his mum and stepdad and he ended up becoming a mean child.
is that what happened when your parents threw you out their car onto the road that one time?
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literally perma ban me I hate myself too
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Originally posted by Nameless
do you love jazz
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Mess; well I did buy C2C the day it came out and I was bopping.
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I hate what that album represents. I want Pop Gaga back.
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Originally posted by DoubleDutchess
I hate what that album represents. I want Pop Gaga back.
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It helped her image though. And even if you don't care about that, it may have inspired great positive music.
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Originally posted by Yndda
you making this joke reminds me of this documentary called the Trouble with Evan, a story about a canadian 11yo who was treated like dirt by his mum and stepdad and he ended up becoming a mean child.
is that what happened when your parents threw you out their car onto the road that one time?
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wow fancy of you to bring up my issues to offend me!!!! Guess what!!!! I'm not, you avi-stealing rat. Crawl back to the turd spawn you 2016 members came from.
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im so sorry for what happened to you Nemo. just know that we're all here for you no matter what, okay? xx
and please, for sure get your checked. you never know what could happen and he needs to be in jail asap cause that is rape. anytime you say 'no' and they continue, that's rape and they should never get away with it.
and please, please be careful
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yikes
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Originally posted by Almodusa
Mess; well I did buy C2C the day it came out and I was bopping.
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don't now. don't know what she sing. i didn't know she sang. i thought she jazzed or whatever.
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I hate what that album represents. I want Pop Gaga back.
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Originally posted by Legit
wow fancy of you to bring up my issues to offend me!!!! Guess what!!!! I'm not, you avi-stealing rat. Crawl back to the turd spawn you 2016 members came from.
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"avi stealing"  jsyn I talked to buddy! about simpsons avis and I even told him that I originally wanted to have a simpsons avi until I saw him with his avi. he was fine with it after I told him
but when you told that story you literally told it like it was nothing? you even coupled it with a laughing emote. you called it "good times". I didn't know it was suddenly actually an issue. 
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Originally posted by Legit
I remember my sister and I were fighting in the backseat one day and my dad literally rushed out of the car, grabbed my arm, tossed me out of the car in the middle of a foking street, and drove off for 20 minutes. I was literally 9. Or when I would act up in public spaces, my mom would bring me to the bathroom and beat me until I was done being a little brat.
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Originally posted by Nemo
hi
Ok so you guys know how my uncle died a few weeks ago... After his service we had like 50+ people come back to my house (my uncle knew like everybody, I literally didn't know at least half ot the people who came ) and so there was like a lot of food and beverages etc... WAIT. I have to go kinda off-topic but not really okay so I think I've probably talked a few times in here about alcohol and how I don't drink and don't want to drink even moderately because I know myself well enough + the fact that there are countless alcoholics on my family... Well that night I slipped I guess? I just started..drinking, idk, but before I knew it I was drunk af. It just felt so amazing like I have literally not felt that at ease and that "happy" in over ten years, I swear. Like I walked downtown in my town after everybody left and just started talking to so many different people and like I just felt like all of my problems were gone.
Since then I have gotten drunk twice again, and each time I got even more wasted than the time before (one of the occasions was my best friends 21st birthday so like I guess it makes sense right? But the events that took place that night/morning are a whole 'nother story for another time d). Anyway so the second time I got drunk I drank alone. I vaguely remember walking all around my town and stuff and I remember at like 3am downloading grindr And I ended up having somebody meet me where I was at the harbor in my town and they picked me up and we went back to their house (obviously this is so out-of-character of me to do as you guys know I really don't like hooking up w strangers at all). I can't remember his name, his face or where he lives, and I can hardly put a face to him. I don't remember almost anything, and the things I do are so blurry and vague because I guess I really drank, like...a lot that night. I remember us being in his shower and a couple of other things. But to finally get to the main reason I am explaining all of this... I remember there being a point where I just wanted to stop. Something switched in my mind or something, idfk, but I remember asking/telling him I wanted to stop and I wanted to go home... And I remember him not stopping. I remember vaguely that I was going on and on about something about how I really can't do hook ups or have sex with people because of certain things. I remember him being on top of me as I was pleading with him to stop asking me something along the lines of "I can't tell, is this real or are we roleplaying?" and I remember telling him him clearly that no, we were not roleplaying and that I was being serious, that I wanted him to stop-- and he didn't. (Mind you, by this point there had been no penetration involved). I don't remember how or when things ended, but I remember lying on his bed staring at the ceiling and my eyes were teary and I was going on and on about something, but I can't remember what exactly it was. I remember him bringing me my clothes and shoes. I remember saying something like "wait- you put your penis inside me didn't you?" and he was like "yeah I did". After that he brought me back and I just remember walking a few blocks home (I didn't want him knowing where I lived) feeling miserable and unsure about everything. Then I went to sleep for like half of the day.
So like.........was I raped? I don't to say I was raped if I wasn't. Like I have no memory of him brutally pinning me down of forcefully penetrating me. But I know for a fact that everything I mentioned above did indeed happen. I know that I was begging him to stop and that did would not and did not stop. I don't know for how long or anything too specific. When I woke up I was not experiencing any unbearable pain or anything? Ugh idk. I'm so confused and I'm just pissed and annoyed with myself for even touching any alcohol in the first place because I told myself I was never going to let myself risk skewing my judgement with alcohol. So like yeah I'm sorry this was such a long post and if you read it all the way through thank you. I really needed to vent about this because up until now I have not mentioned this to a single person. I appreciate y'all a lot and how so many of you have been so helpful through different situations in the past.
Edit: Ok same no this was not a reply to the post above mine.
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If you never gave consent, then it was rape.
My sister was sexually assaulted when she was staying at a friend's house, she was sleeping in the bed, the guy must have got into bed with her during the night and when she woke up in the morning, his fingers were inside her vagina, she was terrified and I actually wonder if she has PTSD from it, sorry this is not directly related to your experience Nemo. Stay strong, we are always here for you if you need to talk 
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