nominate my 3 #1's u can read them here x idk what category make it up x
hi
Dead-End Dreamer
You never should have made that decision
Said goodbye to your chance to go
You claimed we were all you needed
I gave in when I should have said no
Then we ran out of gas and money
So we packed up moved out of the city
The kids didn't wanna change home again
Where they felt anger I felt pity
You've got a lot of regrets
Keeping you up driving through your mind
You're still looking for escape
At the bottom of every bottle you find
When you're high it's better
Reality's gone you can hide away
You're nothin' but a dead-end dreamer
And I got tired of living that way
You drank over work for a living
So we moved into a run down shack
Then you picked up a bad habit
I threw you out I ain't never looked back
And I can still hear my mama's words
If he don't provide then you gotta move on
She got out with her life ahead
And I had to learn by doing it wrong
You've got a lot of regrets
Keeping you up driving through your mind
You're still looking for escape
At the bottom of every bottle you find
When you're high it's better
Reality's gone you can hide away
You're nothin' but a dead-end dreamer
And I got tired of living that way
And you still think about that crash
Every night after all these years
It was a bad idea to go driving
After you'd been sinking a couple of beers
And the kids will never get to visit
The places that we failed to reach in life
Their dreams have all been ruined
You're married to regrets now instead of your wife
You've got a lot of regrets
Keeping you up driving through your mind
You're still looking for escape
At the bottom of every bottle you find
When you're high it's better
Reality's gone you can hide away
You're nothin' but a dead-end dreamer
And I got tired of living that way
You're nothin' but a dead-end dreamer
And I got tired of living that way
Balloon
Fourteen years old and seven stone
Today I felt proud I could see another bone
I stop myself from eating
Feel the hunger start to spread
Food will make you ugly
I hear the voices in my head
And i'm friends with the scales
All the numbers and me
I'll watch the pounds fall
Each one a victory
Tomorrow i'll miss another meal
Just as long as it makes me feel
I want to walk in the snow, honest and bare
Leave no footprints behind me, as if I weren't there
If i'm light I can float, up from the ground
Vanish like a balloon, never coming back down
My clothes are way too big
So people cannot see
The body I despise
And what's become of me
I'll binge late at night
Just to swallow my pride
I really need your support
Will you stay by my side
Fifteen years old and my skin is now taut
If I lose in the end at least I have fought
I want to walk in the snow, honest and bare
Leave no footprints behind me, as if I weren't there
If i'm light I can float, up from the ground
Vanish like a balloon, never coming back down
There's a sickness inside
That I can't seem to fight
And it plays on my mind
With each swallow and bite
I want to walk in the snow, honest and bare
Leave no footprints behind me, as if I weren't there
If i'm light I can float, up from the ground
Vanish like a balloon, never coming back down
I'm begging for help, please know that i'm trying
I'm crippled with shame, it feels harder than dying
Gone With The Breeze
I'm choking on words I couldn't say
As the life drains from your hand
I thought you were weak for letting go
But I was just too young to understand
I play these moments in my mind
Where you listen and take the medicine
When all you wanted was goodbye
I couldn't say I loved you Evelyn
I'm not ready for the sun to set
Can we stop the earth from spinning
I need a chance to make it right
Take me back to the beginning
I'd wipe the water from your eyes
And put your mind at ease
You can count on me to be alright
When you're gone with the breeze
Maybe I was born stubborn
Or just extremely selfish
You were asking to give up
I couldn't respect your final wish
I put my suffering above your own
By trying to make you stay and fight
There's so much I would do differently
I've got to stop living in hindsight
I'm not ready for the sun to set
Can we stop the earth from spinning
I need a chance to make it right
Take me back to the beginning
I'd wipe the water from your eyes
And put your mind at ease
You can count on me to be alright
When you're gone with the breeze
I'll become the man you wanted me to be
And keep this family together
I'll never forget the lessons you taught me
Your spirit will blow with me forever
The sun keeps on rising
And the earth is always spinning
I can never make it right
But I can start a new beginning
I'll wipe the water from my eyes
And put my mind at ease
You can count on me i'll be alright
Now you're gone with the breeze
I typed that whole essay as a sort of meltdown, so I figured I'd end it on a joke to not sound so bitter. 
Did it actually seem like it could be interpreted as such? My prowess as a writer!
