I got so drunk the past two nights it's actually a problem bc I loved it so much and I feel like I wish I could be drunk all the time right now.

Hardly in my life have I ever gotten drunk because of the fear of become addicted to it or something. Alcoholism runs in my family as well. Like I really want to be able to have a few drinks on any occasion and not overdo it but I didn't intend to get drunk either of the past two nights, initially I just wanted to get a buzz. Most of the people I was with weren't even getting drunk so like it wasn't because other people were or something. I just legit don't know how to moderate myself