Hey everyone so basically I feel like I'm female trapped in a male body. I'm 17 year old, and I'll be 18 in 2 months, and I feel like beyond ready to start my transition, but basically the only thing holding me back is my mom, honestly because she's scared of her and her husbands' friends opinions and it's making me so upset, like, I don't understand why she just can't support me? we talked about it and she said that she didn't want me to transition in the neighborhood we live in. so I guess I can't do it until i move, but that's killing me inside, and I'm tried of being something I'm not. I feel like I'm so ready to just be myself. like, I get so happy when I put on heels an wear makeup, and have nails. and when I have to take it off it just makes me depressed as ****
I feel like I'll be visiting this thread a lot, but let me start with something that happened recently:
My father was on unemployment for 2 years but last August he finally found a job in Arizona and traveled there so we can make ends meet. My mother and I live in NJ so it's hard being that far away from him, but we thought it wasn't too bad since we really needed money and it finally seemed like we were getting back up on our feet. But then, on December 22nd, my dad got a heart attack. Finding out about it was easily the scariest moment of my life and I spent the next couple of days just laying in bed, crying. He stayed in the hospital for about 5 days and he is doing well now but we ended up with a hospital bill of 100,000$. His insurance wasn't active until January 1st. He came home for a week, but now he's back in AZ all by himself. I am just extremely worried about his health, especially since we have no idea how we are ever going to pay off that bill and that stresses him out a lot. Also, the thought of moving to Arizona isn't appealing to me at all. We have no family there, no friends, no one at all. It's just all really depressing
I've been trying to do everything to stop myself.
I can't.
Venting here isn't gonna change anything but I have no idea what else to do.
Not to sound rude or to judge, but have you really tried everything? Do your parents know about your unusual habit? Have you tried speaking to a therapist about? If you're really serious about overcoming this you need to start letting people into your life. You're right venting here will probably not change anything, you have to start by changing some things in your life.
Not to sound rude or to judge, but have you really tried everything? Do your parents know about your unusual habit? Have you tried speaking to a therapist about? If you're really serious about overcoming this you need to start letting people into your life. You're right venting here will probably not change anything, you have to start by changing some things in your life.
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I did everything I could besides talking about it to my family. I simply don't want that, it would raise more trouble. I'm in a constant bipolar mood where on one side I want to get better but on the other side I want to be gone forever, it depends on the day. The last time I've opened up to someone was a tragedy. Yet, once again I've tried to let people into my life, it just didn't work out. I don't know what should be my next step.
I did everything I could besides talking about it to my family. I simply don't want that, it would raise more trouble. I'm in a constant bipolar mood where on one side I want to get better but on the other side I want to be gone forever, it depends on the day. The last time I've opened up to someone was a tragedy. Yet, once again I've tried to let people into my life, it just didn't work out. I don't know what should be my next step.
Thank you for the comment. xx
I really think you should like talk to a psy or something because these ppl can really help you and you can trust them because they won't judge you or tell someone else
And I see a lot of depressed ppl in ur siggy I think you should move on to something more positive (Prism and Alive by Jessie J because I think they are really like a celebration of life but skip By the grace of god and I Miss Her). I'm so serious you need to learn to love yourself cause ppl are mean xx
I did everything I could besides talking about it to my family. I simply don't want that, it would raise more trouble. I'm in a constant bipolar mood where on one side I want to get better but on the other side I want to be gone forever, it depends on the day. The last time I've opened up to someone was a tragedy. Yet, once again I've tried to let people into my life, it just didn't work out. I don't know what should be my next step.
Thank you for the comment. xx
I'm unaware of what your problems are but it seems as though you have issues opening up. Would writing everything (and I mean EVERYTHING) down in some sort of diary/log be of any help? Just so it feels like you've poured your heart out?
I did everything I could besides talking about it to my family. I simply don't want that, it would raise more trouble. I'm in a constant bipolar mood where on one side I want to get better but on the other side I want to be gone forever, it depends on the day. The last time I've opened up to someone was a tragedy. Yet, once again I've tried to let people into my life, it just didn't work out. I don't know what should be my next step.
Thank you for the comment. xx
Sometimes we think opening up to our parents about sensitive issues will only make things worst, but for the most part they just want what's best for us. PLEASE talk to them, I beg of you. You need to fight, even if its just for the part of you that wants to get better. It might not sound easy, but with the help of friends and family you can overcome this. Your issue is psychological, seeing a therapist will do you good, but you need to tell your family, because you will need all the support you can to get you through. PLEASE don't give up
I really think you should like talk to a psy or something because these ppl can really help you and you can trust them because they won't judge you or tell someone else
And I see a lot of depressed ppl in ur siggy I think you should move on to something more positive (Prism and Alive by Jessie J because I think they are really like a celebration of life but skip By the grace of god and I Miss Her). I'm so serious you need to learn to love yourself cause ppl are mean xx
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Originally posted by ForeverNow90
Sometimes we think opening up to our parents about sensitive issues will only make things worst, but for the most part they just want what's best for us. PLEASE talk to them, I beg of you. You need to fight, even if its just for the part of you that wants to get better. It might not sound easy, but with the help of friends and family you can overcome this. Your issue is psychological, seeing a therapist will do you good, but you need to tell your family, because you will need all the support you can to get you through. PLEASE don't give up
If I open up to my parents, I must come out as well otherwise I won't be able to talk about anything. I don't feel ready yet but that seems to be the only solution. I have been searching for months, trying to find a cure or something for me that doesn't involves my family/therapist but there's no way out, I guess. I'm trying with all of my power not to give up, thank you.
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Originally posted by Abraham
I'm unaware of what your problems are but it seems as though you have issues opening up. Would writing everything (and I mean EVERYTHING) down in some sort of diary/log be of any help? Just so it feels like you've poured your heart out?
I've already tried that, it helped a little but now it makes me have bad flashbacks.
& I've talked about my problems here before, it's on the 7th page.
If I open up to my parents, I must come out as well otherwise I won't be able to talk about anything. I don't feel ready yet but that seems to be the only solution. I have been searching for months, trying to find a cure or something for me that doesn't involves my family/therapist but there's no way out, I guess. I'm trying with all of my power not to give up, thank you.
Are you scared that your parents might disown you after you come out?
so basically I feel like I'm female trapped in a male body. I'm 17 year old, and I'll be 18 in 2 months, and I feel like beyond ready to start my transition, but basically the only thing holding me back is my mom, honestly because she's scared of her and her husbands' friends opinions and it's making me so upset, like, I don't understand why she just can't support me? we talked about it and she said that she didn't want me to transition in the neighborhood we live in. so I guess I can't do it until i move, but that's killing me inside, and I'm tried of being something I'm not. I feel like I'm so ready to just be myself. like, I get so happy when I put on heels an wear makeup, and have nails. and when I have to take it off it just makes me depressed as **** 
