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Originally posted by KareBear
I'm still thinking about it. I dont know why its bothering me so much.. probably because its such a weird and preventable way for her to lose her life. I dont get why he targeted her and went out of his way to drive travel just to kill her. Its so evil.
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I 100% agree.
The thought of her passing has haunted me all day long and the more I think of it the more depressed and astonished I become. I'm almost in denial that it happened -- as if it's all just a big misunderstanding or some hoax.
The way it happened is inhuman and almost unreal. I also think that the fact that there are videos of her from the night before and of her last performance right before her death are things that are really bothering me too. I can't bare to watch them without wanting to scream, "DONT GO BACKSTAGE!" .... it's almost like something you'd see in a horror movie, but real life. It's just seeing how amazing she was and how happy she was and knowing that soon her life was going to come to an end literally drains me emotionally and mentally. Knowing that her final moments were caught on tape at her show. Knowing she was so excited to be on tour doing what she loved, performing for her fans. It's agonizingly painful to think about.
I've never really gotten into her own music, but I used to occasionally watch her youtube covers/videos and thought she was one of the sweetest, fun-loving, passionate, talented girl I've ever seen and my heart is completely shattered knowing that she's gone.
All I know now is that I hope her killer burns for eternity in the pits of hell. Because we all know this beautiful angel is singing to Jesus and all the other beautiful, innocent angels that are resting above in Heaven.