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Poll: The Depression Thread: Are you depressed?
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View Poll Results: Are you depressed?
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Yes
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48.98% |
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Sometimes
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37.76% |
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No
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Member Since: 3/1/2014
Posts: 2,462
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Lately I've noticed how depressed I am. I'm going though a lot of changes in my life with nobody by my aide to help me through it. I have my mom, but she lives like 45 minutes away from me. I've resorts to just eating whatever I see to make myself feel better.
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Member Since: 4/12/2008
Posts: 11,333
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I dealed with some depression when I was a teenager, I had no friends, I was gay and I had a religious family. Sometimes I wished I died tbh.
I would like to say to anyone that has those thoughts that it gets better. I'm now 23, I came out and my family took it so well they have invited my boyfriends to have dinner at my house. I started to transform into an outgoing boy as I entered to college and now I have plenty of friends.
Sometimes I feel like I wanna cry when I remember that I wanted to die, that would have been such a waste considering how things have changed and now I'm like the happiest guy alive.
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Member Since: 6/9/2011
Posts: 17,950
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Not depressed just really anxious. 
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Member Since: 1/2/2014
Posts: 23,393
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I'd recommend anyone that feels like they are truly depressed to go seek help whether it's your doctor or someone. I went last year and I wish I had done 5 years earlier because my life could have been totally different if I had.
I was taken off anti-depressants in November and I was fine...until recently when it just seems to have come back. But because of the 'therapy' and other things i can cope with it better than I could have done before.
Going to the doctor isn't a miracle cure but it's a step in the right direction.
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Member Since: 10/8/2009
Posts: 4,844
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Really sad to hear all these storeies of being gay and family members not being accepted. My older brother outed me when I was 12 when he found magazines related to gay issues and showed my mom. For weeks, every time she'd see me she'd call me f*ggots and curse me out. I don't like to bring it up cause our relationship is fine for the most part now, but my mom has selective memory regarding that.
I eventually went into foster care cause I was having issues at home and attempted suicie, and although it messed up our family unit, I was shielded in a way cause at my foster mom's house, I got do my own thing. I lived with a very loving Christian woman, but she was not judgemental in any sense of the word and exemplified what I feel the love of Christianity is supposed to be about.
As for now, these guys I get attatched to have totally stomped all over my heart. I just want companionship and to feel loved so bad. This guy I became head over heels called yesterday and said he was gonna come over and talk about some stuff that we needed to and he didn't even show up or even call. My day was going so bad until he called and I was so hopeful that I'd see him and it was like he kicked me down even more.
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Member Since: 1/2/2014
Posts: 23,393
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My depression has definitely come back but I don't want to go to the doctor.
it' so bad though. I keep getting...these thoughts and I just wish they'd go away.
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Member Since: 1/1/2014
Posts: 59,596
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I'm perpetually sad and depressed but I listen to music as catharsis to escape it from my reality.
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Member Since: 2/12/2012
Posts: 27,814
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I used to be feeling depressing with my old bff. But after ditching him, I was starting to feel more happiness than depression....
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Y'all be positive now 
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Member Since: 1/2/2014
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I used to listen to music but even that doesn't help anymore. I have no escape.
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Member Since: 12/10/2010
Posts: 23,117
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I've had severe depression in the past. I overcame it but it's very easy for me to fall into that mind frame. I think recently I've fallen back into that negative state of mind. It's not at the point I want to die or hurt myself but everything just feels a bit pointless and sometimes I just don't want to get out of bed and face the world.
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Member Since: 1/1/2014
Posts: 3,440
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I don't know if it''s on topic, but i feel like i'm losing any interest in everything in my life. Like, i feel like nothing is interesting or surprising or exciting for me. But maybe i should just change my enviroment? I don't know...
Hope everyone will overcome it.
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Member Since: 1/1/2014
Posts: 15,921
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yes, I feel very depressed over the fact I am gay and nobody here understands it, I lack confidence which I am still working on, and I am affraid to speak up and stand for what I believe!
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Member Since: 6/18/2012
Posts: 18,768
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Member Since: 1/1/2014
Posts: 15,921
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Quote:
Originally posted by Buyonce1814
I used to listen to music but even that doesn't help anymore. I have no escape.
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listen to Moby!
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=qT6XCvDUUsU
this song makes me cry when I am down low in my life, and after tears I get a little bit better and realize it's gonna be better!
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Member Since: 1/1/2014
Posts: 15,921
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Quote:
Originally posted by jack516
Yeah & I identify with a lot of you guys said here already. It's really scary sometimes when u just HAVE to cry without any important reason... just because u strart overthinking yourself, realize that you are lonely as ****, worry about the future and what others think of you, have a bad day or get disappointed or irritated by something which is not even important.
For example a few days ago, one cute boy randomly started talking to me in a shop, that he saw me in my school and wanted to get to know me more, but I kinda freaked out and ended the dialogue before it even started. I felt so horrible about myself for not even smiling at him & wasting this possible chance like that 
Like yeah, it's really funny and now I laugh about it, but it really ultimately ruined my day 
Also the worst thing is when someone is wrongfully screaming at me or I embarrass myself. That can be really hurtful.
It's weird cos I was never really in love with nobody and I don't feel several important emotions like happiness, love, care, the feeling of looking forward to something & pleasure from success, pleasure in general....however I always act polite and kind. I still think I'm a good person.
But some days I feel just so empty and careless. I literally have no feelings to anyone and will say ugly things to people who don't even deserve it. The day after I regret it and blame myself which makes me even more down. 
Then there is my social isolation. I'm really talkative but somehow I am afraid of people, especially uncomfortable in bigger groups in which I don't know 100% of the people. That led to me having no real friends. |
omg same sis
especially that part when meeting new people, I am feeling so ashamed, thinking that I am not worth their time, that they are only judging me and wanting to hurt me. I am so uncomfortable around new people, I am quiet and shy and I don't know what to say or talk about, my brain just blocks!
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Member Since: 9/1/2012
Posts: 25,973
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I think I might start looking into anti-depressants. It's getting worse to the point of it being dangerous.
I wish I had a story, you guys must have it so hard
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Member Since: 3/8/2014
Posts: 6,940
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I feel like this society is one of the main reasons for my depression tbh. I had many problems with my family and my school was terrible, I feel overworked and I always thought that this was the reason for my depression but ever since I'm in therapy I also felt a huge hate against our modern society especially the American Lifestyle. The youth nowadays is so oversexualized and nobody really cares about important topics at all. The oversexualization/hypersexuality of this generation is what gets on my nerves. Relationships are dying out, the birth rate is falling to an all time low, everyone is scared of kids and let me not start with all the US Pop girls and their oversexual videos. I'm so happy that our media is ignoring them. Idk. I really have a problem with this society. It's not that bad in Germany but I'm scared that this whole US trend could become a thing in Europe/Germany.
I'm sorry, just some of my thoughts that make me "depressed" lately (not really depressed but they definitely bother me a lot). Maybe it's because of the gay community where this whole thing has a bigger influence on "our" culture. The general/heterosexual public seems more, idk, sophisticated? I feel like we don't live in a healthy society anymore.
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Member Since: 9/15/2012
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Quote:
Originally posted by MonsterPaw
I feel like this society is one of the main reasons for my depression tbh. I had many problems with my family and my school was terrible, I feel overworked and I always thought that this was the reason for my depression but ever since I'm in therapy I also felt a huge hate against our modern society especially the American Lifestyle. The youth nowadays is so oversexualized and nobody really cares about important topics at all. The oversexualization/hypersexuality of this generation is what gets on my nerves. Relationships are dying out, the birth rate is falling to an all time low, everyone is scared of kids and let me not start with all the US Pop girls and their oversexual videos. I'm so happy that our media is ignoring them. Idk. I really have a problem with this society. It's not that bad in Germany but I'm scared that this whole US trend could become a thing in Europe/Germany.
I'm sorry, just some of my thoughts that make me "depressed" lately (not really depressed but they definitely bother me a lot). Maybe it's because of the gay community where this whole thing has a bigger influence on "our" culture. The general/heterosexual public seems more, idk, sophisticated? I feel like we don't live in a healthy society anymore.
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You are not alone in this, I feel this intense hate to how society works. (I live in the US so what you described is really most of what I know.) It's not just the hypersexualization, but also how people can treat people like trash and get away with it so easily just because people want to fu ck them. I've started to notice that friend groups at least at my high school are compromised of people who are equally as "attractive" as one another with very few exceptions. And of course people who look good can really get whatever they want over everyone else. It really pisses me off that people's desire to S someone's D can completely change how they treat people and they're not introspective enough to make any note of it.
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Member Since: 11/13/2011
Posts: 6,570
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I was in Barcelona a few days ago and even though I thoroughly enjoyed it, I have to admit I felt pretty lonely for the first time since ever. You know, you're walking down the streets and see all of these amazing buildings and sights, and you completely enjoy them, until you witness all those pairs around you having a great time. And suddenly you simply feel lonely, because at the end of the day, you got no one to share it with. It even went as far as me sitting in a metro and seeing a young gay couple (they were 17/18 I guess) publically kissing each other really softly and sweet, and all I felt was jealousy. Jealousy over the fact I lost so so many years due to insecurities and jealousy because I dont have sth like that and never really had, even though I was in a relationship. Thats when I question myself. Usually I think I have a lot to offer, I dont look particularly bad, Im friendly and kind, Im educated, Im about to finish my studies, people describe me as funny, my body is OK... but still I have such a hard time finding someone. Like whats the deal I sometimes ask myself?? Its really weird, and then I start to figure out I might overestimate myself, and that Im basically just regular and no one special.
Its a weird feeling, and I would never call it depression, but you know, it makes me sad at times.
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Member Since: 1/1/2014
Posts: 4,325
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Not anymore. I'm getting better tho.
I still have bad days sometimes but i try to keep my life positive as possible. It's hard but i'm trying.
I wish the best for all of you. I know life is hard, we all have problems, ups and downs... but it gets better. And y'all will find true happiness someday. I'm still searching, but i know i will. 
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