[Eaten By Lions]

Originally posted by Midnight

I see.... It sounds like he's playing games. I mean, to actually kiss you and grab your hand then ignore you?

As for being nonchalant rather than showing how you really feel, it's kind of sad that that has to be done. People don't want to be hurt or show too much emotion, so it's the best thing to do. Putting yourself out there and getting nothing in return is extremely hurtful. You're probably doing the right thing by convincing yourself that you don't care. It'll keep you from obsessing over what could've been....

People should be up front instead of playing games. If it were only that simple...

I know! I think it's more of an attention span thing, he never outright ignores me he just only gives me affection sometimes. And I make my move when I can (I groped him lol) but I would rather just not have the games. We live different lives so yeah you're right. It's never good obsessing over what coud have been. I just think that grabbing someone's hand is a romantic thing, I would never do that to a guy I didn't really like.

Even in your case with some guy who hasn't talked to you since July? That's rough sis, but more good guys will come along. I know you keep up with your fitness.

[Midnight]

Originally posted by Eaten By Lions

I know! I think it's more of an attention span thing, he never outright ignores me he just only gives me affection sometimes. And I make my move when I can (I groped him lol) but I would rather just not have the games. We live different lives so yeah you're right. It's never good obsessing over what coud have been. I just think that grabbing someone's hand is a romantic thing, I would never do that to a guy I didn't really like.

Even in your case with some guy who hasn't talked to you since July? That's rough sis, but more good guys will come along. I know you keep up with your fitness.

Oh, I see now. Are you guys near each other? Maybe it can actually turn into something.

Holding hands is definitely really intimate. Maybe he sees it differently, tho...

The asshole I was seeing from January to May cut me off like I was nothing in the middle of July. He just recently unfollowed me on tumblr and the wounds opened right back up. I am seeing someone right now, but this other guy is really affecting me... It's pathetic, but I fall hard...

[jayyyxtee]

Originally posted by Eaten By Lions

I mean it's not that serious, it's someone who I had hooked up with a few months back but had never given too much though about. But I was at a friend's house for the weekend and he was there and I just saw what a great person he actually was. When we had alone time we kissed but at one point he started grabbing my hand. Then he paid me DUST later on.

If there is one thing I can't stand it's looking vulnerable when it comes to my heart so I have to play it cool but I hate that I have to pretend to not care about him doing that mushy/couple ****. I'm almost certain it meant nothing to him and I just hate the process of convincing myself I don't care either.

But when we first hooked up I didn't even care so yes, you're right once you start caring about things you never game a damn about before it's hard!!

Wait sis the same thing happened with me

One night my best friend took me to this hidden park in our town and next thing I know he's giving me a hand job. He initiated it and I never would have guessed. So then we spoke and decided in order not to ruin our friendship if we start developing feelings we would stop fooling around in order to maintain our friendship. So we started hooking up like once a week for about 2 months but we just got really busy with work/school. It got really intense too he offered to have sex with me but I said no that I was okay with everything else. Naturally I notice that I start developing feelings because I was being real touchy feely and territorial etc. Also it doesn't help that EVERYBODY we know says we are secretly boyfriends Basically we stopped hooking up even though I wanted to SO badly and couldn't understand why we stopped, I thought he didn't want to anymore On New Year's though I told him I wanted to and so we did but I could just tell he didn't want to do it and couldn't wait till it over and I tried to make out with him and he said no. Afterwards I felt like COMPLETE **** for a few days and didn't talk to anybody cause I guess in that moment I realized that we will never be together so I'm trying to distance myself and not rely on him for sexual pleasure although I do miss hooking up with him it was so much fun

[jayyyxtee]

Oh I also remember we cuddled one afternoon and it was amazing I tried to start something but we said "wrong"

Also one night I slept over his house and I noticed that he was feeling me up, he thought I was sleeping but I wasn't and I heard him say my name trying to wake me up but I was so scared and shocked I just pretended to sleep. To this day he still doesn't know that I know

[Eaten By Lions]

Originally posted by Midnight

Oh, I see now. Are you guys near each other? Maybe it can actually turn into something.

Holding hands is definitely really intimate. Maybe he sees it differently, tho...

The asshole I was seeing from January to May cut me off like I was nothing in the middle of July. He just recently unfollowed me on tumblr and the wounds opened right back up. I am seeing someone right now, but this other guy is really affecting me... It's pathetic, but I fall hard...

Unfollowing you on tumblr? Like that is just a bitch move, uncalled for to pull that on you.

Sometimes guys I barely had a thing with affect me for long periods of time but I play it off like it's nothing. I have an extremely sensitive heart but by no means do I want everyone knowing that.

Originally posted by jayyyxtee

Wait sis the same thing happened with me

One night my best friend took me to this hidden park in our town and next thing I know he's giving me a hand job. He initiated it and I never would have guessed. So then we spoke and decided in order not to ruin our friendship if we start developing feelings we would stop fooling around in order to maintain our friendship. So we started hooking up like once a week for about 2 months but we just got really busy with work/school. It got really intense too he offered to have sex with me but I said no that I was okay with everything else. Naturally I notice that I start developing feelings because I was being real touchy feely and territorial etc. Also it doesn't help that EVERYBODY we know says we are secretly boyfriends Basically we stopped hooking up even though I wanted to SO badly and couldn't understand why we stopped, I thought he didn't want to anymore On New Year's though I told him I wanted to and so we did but I could just tell he didn't want to do it and couldn't wait till it over and I tried to make out with him and he said no. Afterwards I felt like COMPLETE **** for a few days and didn't talk to anybody cause I guess in that moment I realized that we will never be together so I'm trying to distance myself and not rely on him for sexual pleasure although I do miss hooking up with him it was so much fun

That is so sad!! Aww it's terrible when there is conflicting feelings about friendship and things get complicated.

I know using your hand isn't as fun as someone you like but hey at least it comes without issues. Maybe he'll come around though

[jayyyxtee]

Originally posted by Eaten By Lions

Unfollowing you on tumblr? Like that is just a bitch move, uncalled for to pull that on you.

Sometimes guys I barely had a thing with affect me for long periods of time but I play it off like it's nothing. I have an extremely sensitive heart but by no means do I want everyone knowing that.





That is so sad!! Aww it's terrible when there is conflicting feelings about friendship and things get complicated.

I know using your hand isn't as fun as someone you like but hey at least it comes without issues. Maybe he'll come around though

Yea it's not fun but it gets the job done. I'm glad we are still best friends but if he wants to fool around again that's okay with me

[Hollywood.]

Saying goodbye to the boyfriend again tonight. Won't get to see him again until his birthday in March

[Maven]

This is my first post in like two weeks and
it's solely to complain about my babysitter.

I MEAN... my boyfriend.


edit: It would help if I actually included my gripe...

[P!nk]

Ugh! My parents are beyond pathetic.

[P!nk]

I always fall for straight guys. ALWAYS! Gays, why don't you attract me?

[Evil-laugh]

I'm so tired

[Igrt]

Not in the best mood today

[Prometheus.]

Still love and know Nicki's "Monster" verse by heart. Definitely her best feature. If only she did this good on her own albums.

[Igrt]

internet is acting funny yet again

[Igrt]

I ****ing hate when my cursomoveslikethisr randomly

[ks_dollar]

I love being gay

[Haven]

Hollering.

[Midnight]

Originally posted by Haven17

Hollering.

What kind of photobomb?

[Brando]

Vista fail:

[Heels Over Head]

@ my recent obsession with burgundy