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so a while back, like 3 weeks or so, i posted in here about having just newly got a boyfriend and i snuck into his house to spend the night with him and it went perfect and then later on that day, no texts until i randomly got a text from his mom saying to never talk to him again or step a foot on their property (he's 18 btw)
so, okay it's been like i said, 3 weeks. so while listening to the 'Thank You' album by Meghan Trainor, i was odly scrolling through facebook (haven't used that **** in years) and then he popped into my head today and i still remember his number. so, i said '**** it' and i typed his number in to see if i can find his profile. i dont want to give up this easily y'know? so i FOUND HIS FACEBOOK (he hasnt updated it since April 16th, 6 days before the whole controversy) but i sent him a friend request anyway.
so then i text all my friends and then, our of again, pure boredom. i went to Grindr and was scrolling through all the guys there. and after looking through his facebook (well, my boyfriend? or not boyfriend? idk, but his name is Jordan), a picture caught my eye. i ran my black ass right to his facebook photos to see if it was the same photo... and IT ****ING WAS AND IS.
so im ****ing panicking (lowkey still am) and, ****. so, i again said '**** it' (my confidence during this was the highest its ever been lol) and i just messaged him. i ****ing messaged him.
now im scared/nervous/confused. scared because what if he doesnt reply or remember me? nervous because again, what if he never replies and im forever left on read or deleted? confused because i thought his phone was taken up and all that, so this must mean he has his phone back, right?
i just really want him to reply so i can get a clear head. i just want to talk about everything that has happened and if he.... if he sadly doesn't want to resume what we had or anything, then i'll have closure and i can officially, 110% move on (i mean ive talked to guys since, but i just, i cant help but think about him).
im just so ****ing nervous and i hope he replies because i want every last detail about what happen and just to talk. ****.
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met two Kik chat friends from a group, had fun 
We went bowling but it sucked that it was raining for the majority of the time.
When my head, it pounds, could you turn down all the sound?