i've been so... bleh lately and i think this is a reason why?
okay, so like, me and this guy i met on Grindr (
and he's not a hot 40 year old this time, he's 18) and we just, we hitted it off so fast and easily. we started talking last, last saturday and then last monday, we both decided to say '**** it' and make it official. so everything was blissful and perfect honestly, and then thursday he wanted me to come over late the night to basically have sex and spend the night. but we kept freaking out over it because i didn't want to get him caught by his parents or anything.
but we took the risk and i got my bff to drive me over to his neighborhood and after like 15 minutes of finding his house, i went through his bedroom window and.... wow. 2 rounds and blissful coversations and kisses later, i was, **** i was in heaven. like it was perfect. he's so god damn pretty (like literally, this boy is literally so pretty i cant believe he even messaged my ugly self first
). so i left around 5am feeling on top of the world and incredible. so when i got home and was about to sleep around 7am, i sent him a long ass text saying 'last night was amazing' and all this cute, romantic **** i was feeling.
then i wake up, and i didnt get a text from him, but he did read it. so i was confused and i texted him again around 4pm. then we texted back and my heart started fluttering, only to realize..
the person that texted me was his ****ing mom. the text went, 'who are you and how do you know my son? this is his mother'.
my heart ****ing sank. i, i never sweated and wanted to literally scream so much before in my life. like, **** i didnt want that to happen. so his mom has his phone, read ALLL our texts (probably seen all our nudes
) and etc, so naturally being the idiot i am, i replied. then she replied back saying 'well anyways, i just wanted to say if you ever come to my house again, i will call the authorities. and you may not contact my son again.'
so i replied back with 'im so sorry and it won't happen again. and i um, i won't.'
and i cried. i ****ing cried. i've NEVER had this happen to me before, i truly don't know how to react. like we didn't break up, i just cant ****ing talk to him anymore.
and i would try to find his grindr, but my dumbass deleted my grindr account the very moment we made it official (this is why being faithful SUCKS) and i re-made it but i couldnt find him. (mostly likely because he doesn't have his phone and it'll show when your online if you did).
so honestly, idk what i should do. should i wait it out and see when he will text me, if he ever does? should i move on? should i text him in like a month just to see?
like i truly don't know what the **** to do tbh, i miss him so much and, ****.
like i understand the whole ' you shouldn't have snuck in' thing like i do. but i just hoped he his parents would have been a bit more understanding and actually heard him and me out.
2016 is truly the worst year for my romance life i ****ing swear to god.
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