I was always a bit 'odd'. Not liking the cool boys' stuff, but joining the girls on the playground.
Then when I was 9, I had a really hot teacher

he was like 24 or something.
I didn't know that I was in love with him, but there was definitely something going on.
I really wanted a girlfriend around that time, but girls weren't interested in me

only as their best friend.
So I started to get jealous of the other boys... who were attractive, fit and good with girls (in a way that I was not).
So basically whenever I say a couple walking hand in hand, I would look at the guy and be super jealous that he was 'better' than me

But then I saw the light. I didn't want to be LIKE those guys, I wanted to be WITH them.
And I remember when I discovered ****

I always wanted to look at the men's penines
I just was more interested in them. So I switched to gay movies really fast.
When I was 18, I had my first kiss with a boy, so now I'm sure that I am truly gay. But never had other experiences