[pika]

Originally posted by Rigalo

sometimes I wish we all went to the same school so we could all be friends

gggg the LASHINGS that would occur.

[iHype.]

Originally posted by Rigalo

We could all drag like tha **** we are and not be scared to do it

Yesss imagine the heaven. Nobody would ever be asked if they were gay and harassed because people thought they were, it'd be the complete opposite. Lmao, I could see bullying on the straight people.

[KT&T]

Originally posted by Ties

Yeah I gave up on the drug stuff simply because it doesn't appeal to me whatsoever. And I don't think I can tell a teacher about my situation because they're likely to report t the police and cause my father to be taken away. I don't want to place any economic stress to my mother.

Thanks!

And yeah, I know. It's just particularly difficult to tell someone, and I don't want anybody pitying me. I want someone to look at me at face value and judge me based on my merits, not my past hardships.

Yes on NO ON DRUGS. I meant to say someone you trust like a very close teacher or adult figure but again you said of your trust issue.

Sometimes though the past does affect how youre doing now and you enhance your merits now if you help alleviate your past issues. We all have problems like I used to always side with my mother but I see both sides. My father used to hit my mother because he was drunk. We never reported because like what youre going through; my mom didn't want the family to split up. It's a good thing our family is pretty much stable right now.

[MikeFenty]

Originally posted by iHypeMusic

Omg yes grawl.

A school where we could all talk about our faves, no gay bullying because most people gay, no harassing jocks etc, etc.

It would be heaven.

Wigs would be flying left&right

[theo.]

All I do is listen to Some Nights by fun. because "some nights I wish that this all would end..."

[iHype.]

Originally posted by Desnudate

Girl, it'd be a war everyday.

It'll be better than it is now for me at school, tbh.

I'd just fit in with the Animals, and have to backhand some Monsters if they get out of line.

[Doc]

Originally posted by BLaCKPoWeR

dfsjkdfjdf a 0. You?

gggg;; I said the FIRST time.
NOT your score after you figured out how to play the system.

[Fujin]

I came to this site for the sole purpose of trolling.

[Rigalo]

Sometimes I think my parents are the dumbest box of rocks that ever existed

[Guernica]

This isn't a secret on the internet but it is in real life, when I was 15 I suffered from extremely deep depression and I would think of ending it all. The only person IRL who knows is my mother and it took me 3 months before I could tell her what was going on. Even then we would just say I was having panic attacks instead of I was depressed. I don't talk about it

Sometimes I think I've gotten so used to being by myself that I've come to prefer it. Like, I've created this whole fantasy life in my head where I'm well liked and blah blah, and I got so used to living inside my head that when I actually started making friends, it was difficult for me. I felt like I wanted to live in the world in my head instead of my actual life, and then I freaked out that I was crazy or something. The world in my head is perfect because I made it that way and my actual life isn't all the time so

And some random ones: I have no motivation to do anything. I'm so ****ing lazy it's ridiculous. I see other people going to college and working all day and what the eff am I doing? I feel like I'm nothing.

[Ties]

Originally posted by phreshprince

I had an eating disorder in the 3rd grade and the 8th grade. It was really bad in the 3rd grade. At first I had a fear of throwing up and I felt like I was sick one day so I didn't eat lunch. Then I didn't eat everyday at lunch and it continued. Eventually I couldn't eat because I would feel so sick trying to. My parents took me to the hospital because I said my stomach was constantly hurting (it was) but they eventually dismissed me. I later had dropped 20 pounds and my mom thought it was because of my stomach hurting. I later somehow started eating again on my own. The same thing happened to me in 8th grade but it only lasted about 2-3 months tops but my uncle had visibly noticed I had lost weight and was skinny.
Now I'm at a place where I go to dark thoughts with my weight and I still have trouble accepting the way I look because of my friends and sometimes the way my dad talks to me (always claims I can lose a couple pounds, Never seems satisfied with me) but I don't have the guts to throw up food or starve myself anymore.

Pretty much how my eating disorder started off as well.

I just constantly tell myself that if I ever dared doing that again I would probably not be alive anymore. Mine gotten to the point where I stopped eating altogether and I was so malnourished that I had to be placed in medical attention with food pipes strapped to my hand. Drowning out your father and seeking advice from peers about your overall appearance should help your psyche out. Shaming in general is a plague that has given rise for eating disorders to begin anyway, and you should tell your father that you have no desire to hear of his commentary anymore.

[MikeFenty]

Originally posted by JungleDisturbia

THIS.

I have such trust issues when it comes to people in my real life, because I feel like my problems are going to be thrown back in my face if I tell someone.

As a result, a few people on ATRL have actually become much better friends than most of my real life ones, since these few people actually listen and don't judge my secrets.

And yes, I have secrets, but after seeing some of the responses in here I don't really feel like sharing. People have gone through much worse than I have.

You should still share,just because some of been through worse doesn't mean your troubles are stupid or pointless

[KT&T]

I never kiss a boy

[iHype.]

Originally posted by JungleDisturbia

THIS.

I have such trust issues when it comes to people in my real life, because I feel like my problems are going to be thrown back in my face if I tell someone.

As a result, a few people on ATRL have actually become much better friends than most of my real life ones, since these few people actually listen and don't judge my secrets.

And yes, I have secrets, but after seeing some of the responses in here I don't really feel like sharing. People have gone through much worse than I have.

Lucky, that's one of the few reasons I joined here tbh.

I saw so many people like me, and people who didn't judge. Honestly, this site is my getaway from real life, since music is my everything - and the community is cool.

I haven't made no close friends on here yet tho, lmao - almost 3 months in.

[Ties]

Originally posted by FantasySoul

I had a miscarriage only my boyfriend knew about me getting pregnant...

I'm so sorry...

[OurLuckyStrike]

Originally posted by iHypeMusic

Yesss imagine the heaven. Nobody would ever be asked if they were gay and harassed because people thought they were, it'd be the complete opposite. Lmao, I could see bullying on the straight people.

If we didn't talk about our favs, other gays will ask us if we're straight.

[BLaCKPoWeR]

Originally posted by Doc

gggg;; I said the FIRST time.
NOT your score after you figured out how to play the system.

I READ your whole post. I got a 0. A 600K in 7 months mess.

[Fujin]

Originally posted by Guernica

This isn't a secret on the internet but it is in real life, when I was 15 I suffered from extremely deep depression and I would think of ending it all. The only person IRL who knows is my mother and it took me 3 months before I could tell her what was going on. Even then we would just say I was having panic attacks instead of I was depressed. I don't talk about it

Sometimes I think I've gotten so used to being by myself that I've come to prefer it. Like, I've created this whole fantasy life in my head where I'm well liked and blah blah, and I got so used to living inside my head that when I actually started making friends, it was difficult for me. I felt like I wanted to live in the world in my head instead of my actual life, and then I freaked out that I was crazy or something. The world in my head is perfect because I made it that way and my actual life isn't all the time so

And some random ones: I have no motivation to do anything. I'm so ****ing lazy it's ridiculous. I see other people going to college and working all day and what the eff am I doing? I feel like I'm nothing.

You have a lot of problems.

[KT&T]

Originally posted by FantasySoul

I had a miscarriage only my boyfriend knew about me getting pregnant...

Reported

[BLaCKPoWeR]

I'm white