I registered for a year for like 25€/per month in mid-april, i went once, my card wasn't ready, they let me in, and unfortunately there no one is explaining anything like at least how the machines work, i did the bicycle thingy for like 40mins then i got overwhelmed by the hot fit guys and left

And since then i haven't gone there. And now i wanna try going again but i feel so nervous about so many things

I feel ashamed that i'm gonna need to tell them that i have a membership but i dont have my card since i haven't been there for like 6 months since my registration
I feel shy coz of the hot guys starting from the employees to the people training
And everyday i'm like, ok TODAY i'm gonna go to the gym after i get home, and everyday i dont
Anyone, any advice?
