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Discussion: The Depression Thread
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Originally posted by TheLucky99
My depression is bad. I already promised myself that if I didn't do anything with my life Or even find happiness before I turned 25, I would end my life. Hopefully everything goes well in the future for me  |
Dude, THIS IS MY PLAN TOO! 
I'm scared of the future, I'm so anxious 
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I'm soda pressed
No but I felt myself going back into this again, but I think I'm learning how to get through it smoothly
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Originally posted by ■YoungCalifornia■
Dude, THIS IS MY PLAN TOO!
I'm scared of the future, I'm so anxious |
What's killing you, bro?
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Member Since: 8/23/2011
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I keep forgetting to take my antidepressants. Guess I've been more busy than usual and keep forgetting.
Does anyone constantly question whether theyre actually depressed. I've actually noticed an improvement in my mood in the recent months since starting medication and now I'm doubting I was even depressed in the first place. God I hate my brain. 
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Originally posted by Hyper_Intake
I keep forgetting to take my antidepressants. Guess I've been more busy than usual and keep forgetting.
Does anyone constantly question whether theyre actually depressed. I've actually noticed an improvement in my mood in the recent months since starting medication and now I'm doubting I was even depressed in the first place. God I hate my brain. |
Gets diagnosed -> takes medication -> gets better
I mean what's there to doubt? I only have doubts that my meds are actually helping, which I realize they are when I stop taking them and get much worse.
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Originally posted by M A R N ★
Yes I have really BAD Depression mostly anxiety though I think the anxiety is what makes me depressed I do meds for it...and my boyfriend helps me through...his the first one to actually knows how to take care  I give him so much **** when Im in my dark place too.... My others would just cheat.
but yeah I'm hard to live with and its not a fun feeling when even ya own mother tries to kick you out 
but I don't let it get the best of me anymore.. i'm a strong woman  sometimes.
I don't have many friends but I do things to keep my mind off stuff like Gaming, hanging with me bf even coming on here talking to you guys keeps my mind off things |
That's good that your bf and meds are helping you with your problems.  I find that depression is easier to handle when you have a partner to help you through it. Hoping that you guys stay strong through all of this.
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Originally posted by Snoopy
Ugh my depression comes and goes in waves. I'll be fine for months and then it'll hit me. To the point in which so much as getting out of bed is a struggle. I've probably been in my current 'funk' since early December and it made my birthday, Christmas and New Year absolute ****, but what ever. Usually I just smoke a ton of weed to numb myself to the feeling of depression (or at least when I'm high, I'm content w/ doing nothing). Then when I can't get any like today, damn, that depression feels like it is suffocating me
This thread is reassuring in that I know I'm not the only one dealing with it. Hope it gets better for all of us |
Yeah always remember that you're not alone, even if you feel like it. I'm not sure if the weed is helpful tho... I was psychologically addicted to it for years but I stopped when it completely took over my life. I became so numb and it just wasn't a good feeling to have. I lost a lot of friends but I replaced my weed habit with exercising and I feel much better. It takes a while to get there but I think you'll probably do the same too. I hope everything works out for you.
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Originally posted by TheLucky99
My depression is bad. I already promised myself that if I didn't do anything with my life Or even find happiness before I turned 25, I would end my life. Hopefully everything goes well in the future for me |
How old are you? 
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Originally posted by Jezang Looz
How old are you?
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This is why I don't like talking about this stuff. Everyone thinks I'm over reacting. I smoked bad weed, it ****ed the **** out of my brain and now my depression has reached a level that I have NO control over. Does it matter how old I am? Do you even care? Are you going to help me? **** off. I don't need someone doubting me and questioning my problems. 
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Originally posted by TheLucky99
This is why I don't like talking about this stuff. Everyone thinks I'm over reacting. I smoked bad weed, it ****ed the **** out of my brain and now my depression has reached a level that I have NO control over. Does it matter how old I am? Do you even care? Are you going to help me? **** off. I don't need someone doubting me and questioning my problems. |
I never said you were overreacting so you are projecting your feelings towards me. You don't know what I'm feeling so it's usually best not to assume, since this is a forum. I asked how old you are because you lowkey said you are having suicidal thoughts if you reach a certain age, so yes it makes me wonder how close you are to reaching said age. If you suddenly stopped posting on ATRL and that was one of your last posts, I'd be worried.
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Originally posted by Jezang Looz
I never said you were overreacting so you are projecting your feelings towards me. You don't know what I'm feeling so it's usually best not to assume, since this is a forum. I asked how old you are because you lowkey said you are having suicidal thoughts if you reach a certain age, so yes it makes me wonder how close you are to reaching said age. If you suddenly stopped posting on ATRL and that was one of your last posts, I'd be worried.
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I'm 19. Sorry for overreacting but still... I don't like talking about my problems because people are going to question me
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Originally posted by TheLucky99
I'm 19. Sorry for overreacting but still... I don't like talking about my problems because people are going to question me |
No one does which is why we have this thread to support each other. At least you have time so that's good. I was more worried that you were like 24 and really considering doing it soon. I actually just had a friend who attempted suicide this Xmas but our other online friend called the cops and saved him. So people do care  even if you think no one does
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Originally posted by Jezang Looz
No one does which is why we have this thread to support each other. At least you have time so that's good. I was more worried that you were like 24 and really considering doing it soon. I actually just had a friend who attempted suicide this Xmas but our other online friend called the cops and saved him. So people do care even if you think no one does |
I just think people don't care unless they're being payed to hear about other people's problems. I have lots of questions about everything and I don't know where to go
Again I'm sorry
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I'm not depressed.
But I was so anxious yesterday about aging. I completely lots appetite and couldn't get to sleep
I'm only 21, but realized how much I've missed socially. It's because I always move. Everyone here has friends only from high school. And I hate Indiana. You have to drive everywhere. There is no spontaneity at all. You won't walk in a park and socialize, everything is empty. Can't wait to graduate from my university and move to NYC to meet with some exciting people. I wish I could have gone to a university in a city downtown full of life and people. Ugh just so frustrating
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Originally posted by TheLucky99
I just think people don't care unless they're being payed to hear about other people's problems. I have lots of questions about everything and I don't know where to go
Again I'm sorry |
Don't even worry about it that's what ATRL is for. Tho yeah it's really hard to find people you trust that you can vent to. It kind of sucks and makes your depression worse but the best thing you can do is keep trying. That's why I'm here cause I know what it feels like to be on the other side. I still don't have everything figured out but I'm in such a happy place and I never thought I'd be here. So it does get better eventually  you just gotta keep going.
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ugh I'm so anxious right now, these exams that I have coming up are getting to me and my mind is elsewhere. I can't get to sleep for hours and when I do sleep I miss my 30 alarms, I don't even hear them As a result of this, I end up waking up at 3 in the afternoon and miss almost half the day.
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My thread got locked, but ever since I came from my Christmas vacation, it struck me that I have 4 projects, and to make things worse the professors are being a pain in the ass and not as helpful to us as students. I wish they can understand we are human beings too. Funny thing, no one is my uni could tell I'm depressed. My mom has doubts but think someone have made me upset. The only way is I'm feeling is I'm feeling stuck, crying once and a while. God, I wanna just end it all.
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I felt like **** a few days ago but now I'm fine.
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Is it bad I only eat one real meal a day?
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I have been feeling depressed for a couple of years now. I had no one to talk to, my life was a mess and I felt like I was stuck at one point in my life and could not move forward. Everything was pointless. The strange thing was that usually these feelings went away as fast as they came. I was completely fine one day, but the next day I couldn't even leave my bed. Or sometimes I would feel better for a couple of months but then suddenly I felt ****** again.
This summer it became way worse. My job completely tore me down. I worked with people on a daily basis and I grew to hate them, I was working 50-60 hours a week and I was so tired but still couldn't sleep. I developed some kind of social anxiety (sorry if i'm using the wrong term), I went to a music festival and I had to leave after 1 or two hours because the amount of people made me sick to my stomach, I couldn't breathe. Stopped talking to my friends and family. I felt worthless.
My turn point came a month ago. We had a minor fight with my boyfriend and it made me think about some stuff. I felt horrible all day, I wanted to die. Then I went home, cried for hours and I told him that I think that I have depression. And I don't think I can get out of it. This was the first time I've ever said it out loud.
(Seriously, I don't know what my purpose was with writing all of this down, and just wanted to let it out finally. Sorry)
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Member Since: 1/1/2014
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Originally posted by Alystar
My thread got locked, but ever since I came from my Christmas vacation, it struck me that I have 4 projects, and to make things worse the professors are being a pain in the ass and not as helpful to us as students. I wish they can understand we are human beings too. Funny thing, no one is my uni could tell I'm depressed. My mom has doubts but think someone have made me upset. The only way is I'm feeling is I'm feeling stuck, crying once and a while. God, I wanna just end it all.
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You just gotta hang on and do the best that you can. Easier said than done, but remember that what you're going through is temporary. I find that uni professors don't really care either but just try your best to stay in communication with them. The worst thing you could do is miss assignments or not communicate with them. Hang in there
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Originally posted by G.U.Y. Gaga
Is it bad I only eat one real meal a day?
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Eventually.. I'm the same way but it's not healthy. When you're young you can get away with it but you should probably try eating more balanced meals.
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Originally posted by Kendi
I have been feeling depressed for a couple of years now. I had no one to talk to, my life was a mess and I felt like I was stuck at one point in my life and could not move forward. Everything was pointless. The strange thing was that usually these feelings went away as fast as they came. I was completely fine one day, but the next day I couldn't even leave my bed. Or sometimes I would feel better for a couple of months but then suddenly I felt ****** again.
This summer it became way worse. My job completely tore me down. I worked with people on a daily basis and I grew to hate them, I was working 50-60 hours a week and I was so tired but still couldn't sleep. I developed some kind of social anxiety (sorry if i'm using the wrong term), I went to a music festival and I had to leave after 1 or two hours because the amount of people made me sick to my stomach, I couldn't breathe. Stopped talking to my friends and family. I felt worthless.
My turn point came a month ago. We had a minor fight with my boyfriend and it made me think about some stuff. I felt horrible all day, I wanted to die. Then I went home, cried for hours and I told him that I think that I have depression. And I don't think I can get out of it. This was the first time I've ever said it out loud.
(Seriously, I don't know what my purpose was with writing all of this down, and just wanted to let it out finally. Sorry)
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Are you and your bf still together and did things get better for you? If you developed social anxiety or depression the best way to seek help is by talking to a therapist. If you find your feelings are overwhelming you I really recommend that you try to talk with one because they might be able to help you out. Otherwise I hope you and your bf are okay
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