Girl dont even think of doing ot. I know it is cliche but it is true...things honestly do get better. Years from now you will be shocked that you even contemplated suicide. It takes time...sometimes years but i swear to you the problens that seem enormous today, wont in the futur.
So I called The Born Brave Bus and they said because of the holidays they can't help you. They will be working from January 2 onward. And they are limited to the Long Island area in NY.