I agree that I'm past my peak. I'm OK with that. I'm not active enough to maintain the relevance I once possessed, but it could be worse. My departure was not a publicity stunt. Steven and I both decided to leave ATRL, he just didn't stay away for as long as I did. If I had intended for it to be a publicity stunt I wouldn't have left for the best part of 5 months and allowed myself to fade into irrelevancy. I've barely maintained much of a presence recently, so I'm surprised to hear people say I'm desperately trying to stay relevant.
I've never sought praise on this forum, and I've never praised myself unlike some of our more egocentric members. As my profile here became more prominent more and more people started to hate me. I didn't bother me at first, but gradually it started to grate on me. At my peak I was arguably the most relevant female poster here, but about a year ago Nicole surpassed me and Foxay did not long after. I never considered myself an e-****, but I guess certain things get lost in translation. In the numerous amount of arguments I've had here I've never really lost it. I don't think I was ever overtly offensive, but I could be wrong in saying that. I was never really a "dragger", was I?
Foxay, you're right. The closure of Random Thoughts and Teh Clique drama that ensued was fatal. It was an unfortunate mess but it was made worse by how I handled the situation. I was weak. I don't think any of us realised the impact that decision would have, I certainly didn't and that was extremely naive of me at the time. I could have been a bitch and brushed off all the criticisms without caring, but I had ostracised members that I never had any problems with before... I unintentionally offended them, but nobody saw it that way. They viewed it as a malicious act. Guilt set in almost immediately. I tried to salvage the situation and redeem myself but to no avail. I do wish things could have been done differently, but you live and learn.
I've been involved in so much drama during my time here. It's one of the things that I became known for, but to a large extent I'm tired of it. I don't expect to get along with everyone, but whenever I decide to post more frequently again it doesn't take long for me to piss someone off and it all begins again... I have a reputation for being a bitch, and I can't shake it. You have no idea how much I've had to bite my tongue since I got back. That's something I never used to do, hence all the arguments. The one thing I don't get is why people call me fake. I've always been honest with people, perhaps sometimes when I shouldn't have been and it's gotten me into trouble here. I'm the type of person that can say "I hate you" and then make up with the person the very next day. I don't take anything too seriously like that, no problem is too big to overcome.
Foxay I'll take the Britney comparison as a compliment.
KoreanDream is no GaGa though, she's more like BoA. A big name, but she's local.
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you're not supposed to defend yourself.
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