Thank you so so so much for everything, from the bottom of my heart.
I completely prepared myself for being eliminated today so even though I'm devastated, I'm looking back at everything with such happy memories.
This experience has completely changed me as a person. It's been such a long time since something has made me this happy and fulfilled with my life and I am so thankful for all of your hard work that you put into this Citrus.
It's been so inspiring week after week and I feel like I've developed new skills, made hopefully lifelong friends and most of all my mood has improved so much. This may sound like such a trivial thing but recently I have been able to reduce my dosage of anti-depressants. I meant everything I said in my Color Me Love about me feeling finally happy after coming from such dark places.
This month, after years of feeling afraid and holding in my story, I finally found the courage to tell my parents about how I was sexually abused as a child. It took a huge strain off our relationship and I don't know why, but somehow it helped them to see why my life has been so hard and they started to understand a bit more why I may have turned out this way. I think they think there's a connection between that and me being gay. I'm not sure I agree but I don't want to argue as it's nice to finally have them on my side for once.
I think I'm going to take the step and tell my mother about drag. I pray that it goes well. Drag is what feels right for me, so I just really want to do it. This experience has definitely made it so much easier for me to pursue my own dreams.
Citrus - You organised this whole competition! I'm so grateful for this opportunity I have been given. I was on holiday at the time and I missed sign-ups so I almost wasn't even here at all and now here I am in the final five queens. I am truly thankful for everything you have done to me. There are times in this competition where I have been a mess and you have helped pull me back up again. What you have done for me has been so life-changing so thank you for that.
To the judging panel - Thank you so much for your hard week week after week reading and critiquing my entries. I hope that I was able to make you laugh at some point! It really feels like such an honour to have someone judge your work and then write about it. You have no idea how much a positive comment from one of you can help to carry me through the day. Thank you so much.
Pears - I don't know what the hell you saw in me from early on but for some reason I seemed to take a liking to you (even to the point where I did a horrible impression of you in one of the challenges) so to have your approval in a lot of the challenges was insane. The judges were often split over my entries but for me it was just enough sometimes to have good critiques from you. Some of the things you have said to me have made me so happy and I can't thank you enough. I feel like I relate to you a lot and I definitely owe you a thank you for all the amazing things you have said to me. You're truly a one of a kind. And if Sasha "Jesus Christ" Belle ever comes to the UK, I'll see you there.
The other queens - Each and every one of you is so so talented and so polished and you all easily deserve your place in the final four. I don't think I have one choice for a winner (it may be close between two of you) because all four of you are just ridiculously talented. To share this journey with you has been so lovely and I'm truly happy to have met you all. I hope that we can continue to stay friends - like they have said on Drag Race, we will be truly bonded together from this experience as the queens of ATRL Drag Race Season 1.
jpow - I still go back to your Starry Eyed video and watch it. I am in awe of how talented you are as a gymnast and it's amazing. You have made me laugh so much in a lot of your entries and you have buckets of uniqueness which has been present in all of your entries. You bring so much versatility to this competition and I know you have the power to make it to the end so keep up all your amazing work. It's been great working with you! Also definitely send me a PM reminder for the ATRL Bake Off, I'm so intrigued.
feelslikeadream - Obviously we connected from the start due to working together in the song challenge. I'm so glad we pulled it of so well and that challenge was such a good idea to help us form friendships from the start. You're so hilarious and you have been such an amazing and consistent queen throughout this competition so it's not surprising to see you here. Keep up the amazing work.
Moonchild - You're so amazingly talented and you're so polished! At some points in the competition, especially with your critiques, I feel like I may have come off as bitter towards you and I'm so sorry for that. You're a fierce queen with a lot of charisma and that just comes from the fact that you're a truly lovely person. It has been lovely to meet you throughout this experience.
Chanel - You're like the only queen here I feel like I haven't had some chance to connect with in this competition but there's still time left yet! I hope we get the chance to talk because you have made me smile so much throughout this competition! It truly wasn't the same when you took a break from the thread. You have come up with some of the most interesting entries throughout this competition and you're so smart in everything you do. You have the brains and so much talent so I knew you were going to be a frontrunner from the start so condragulations on being here - you really deserve it.
Sabbath - I'm really sorry and I apologise if I have let you down by not succeeding in the last challenge. I was truly gagged myself by the name Committa Crime! It was so lovely to have been able to work with you and I better see you back here next season representing Haus of Scarlett
But don't think you can get rid of me that easily! This experience has tied us to this game as the top five contestants. I wanna be judge next season, and I'll definitely see you at All-Stars. I wish this thread could stay open all the time after this is over because it's such a lovely environment with such nice people.
This experience has given me self-worth, it's helped me to meet so many amazing people. I'm happier, I'm inspired and most of all - I'm thankful. Thank you so much for everything
Carmen, you are such a strong, strong person. I'm sending you all the love in the world right now, and I'm so happy that this game has meant so much to you. No matter what happens in the real world, I hope you know that you always have a family here that loves and supports you in whatever you want to do.
Thank you so so so much for everything, from the bottom of my heart.
I completely prepared myself for being eliminated today so even though I'm devastated, I'm looking back at everything with such happy memories.
This experience has completely changed me as a person. It's been such a long time since something has made me this happy and fulfilled with my life and I am so thankful for all of your hard work that you put into this Citrus.
It's been so inspiring week after week and I feel like I've developed new skills, made hopefully lifelong friends and most of all my mood has improved so much. This may sound like such a trivial thing but recently I have been able to reduce my dosage of anti-depressants. I meant everything I said in my Color Me Love about me feeling finally happy after coming from such dark places.
This month, after years of feeling afraid and holding in my story, I finally found the courage to tell my parents about how I was sexually abused as a child. It took a huge strain off our relationship and I don't know why, but somehow it helped them to see why my life has been so hard and they started to understand a bit more why I may have turned out this way. I think they think there's a connection between that and me being gay. I'm not sure I agree but I don't want to argue as it's nice to finally have them on my side for once.
I think I'm going to take the step and tell my mother about drag. I pray that it goes well. Drag is what feels right for me, so I just really want to do it. This experience has definitely made it so much easier for me to pursue my own dreams.
Citrus - You organised this whole competition! I'm so grateful for this opportunity I have been given. I was on holiday at the time and I missed sign-ups so I almost wasn't even here at all and now here I am in the final five queens. I am truly thankful for everything you have done to me. There are times in this competition where I have been a mess and you have helped pull me back up again. What you have done for me has been so life-changing so thank you for that.
To the judging panel - Thank you so much for your hard week week after week reading and critiquing my entries. I hope that I was able to make you laugh at some point! It really feels like such an honour to have someone judge your work and then write about it. You have no idea how much a positive comment from one of you can help to carry me through the day. Thank you so much.
Pears - I don't know what the hell you saw in me from early on but for some reason I seemed to take a liking to you (even to the point where I did a horrible impression of you in one of the challenges) so to have your approval in a lot of the challenges was insane. The judges were often split over my entries but for me it was just enough sometimes to have good critiques from you. Some of the things you have said to me have made me so happy and I can't thank you enough. I feel like I relate to you a lot and I definitely owe you a thank you for all the amazing things you have said to me. You're truly a one of a kind. And if Sasha "Jesus Christ" Belle ever comes to the UK, I'll see you there.
The other queens - Each and every one of you is so so talented and so polished and you all easily deserve your place in the final four. I don't think I have one choice for a winner (it may be close between two of you) because all four of you are just ridiculously talented. To share this journey with you has been so lovely and I'm truly happy to have met you all. I hope that we can continue to stay friends - like they have said on Drag Race, we will be truly bonded together from this experience as the queens of ATRL Drag Race Season 1.
jpow - I still go back to your Starry Eyed video and watch it. I am in awe of how talented you are as a gymnast and it's amazing. You have made me laugh so much in a lot of your entries and you have buckets of uniqueness which has been present in all of your entries. You bring so much versatility to this competition and I know you have the power to make it to the end so keep up all your amazing work. It's been great working with you! Also definitely send me a PM reminder for the ATRL Bake Off, I'm so intrigued.
feelslikeadream - Obviously we connected from the start due to working together in the song challenge. I'm so glad we pulled it of so well and that challenge was such a good idea to help us form friendships from the start. You're so hilarious and you have been such an amazing and consistent queen throughout this competition so it's not surprising to see you here. Keep up the amazing work.
Moonchild - You're so amazingly talented and you're so polished! At some points in the competition, especially with your critiques, I feel like I may have come off as bitter towards you and I'm so sorry for that. You're a fierce queen with a lot of charisma and that just comes from the fact that you're a truly lovely person. It has been lovely to meet you throughout this experience.
Chanel - You're like the only queen here I feel like I haven't had some chance to connect with in this competition but there's still time left yet! I hope we get the chance to talk because you have made me smile so much throughout this competition! It truly wasn't the same when you took a break from the thread. You have come up with some of the most interesting entries throughout this competition and you're so smart in everything you do. You have the brains and so much talent so I knew you were going to be a frontrunner from the start so condragulations on being here - you really deserve it.
Sabbath - I'm really sorry and I apologise if I have let you down by not succeeding in the last challenge. I was truly gagged myself by the name Committa Crime! It was so lovely to have been able to work with you and I better see you back here next season representing Haus of Scarlett
But don't think you can get rid of me that easily! This experience has tied us to this game as the top five contestants. I wanna be judge next season, and I'll definitely see you at All-Stars. I wish this thread could stay open all the time after this is over because it's such a lovely environment with such nice people.
This experience has given me self-worth, it's helped me to meet so many amazing people. I'm happier, I'm inspired and most of all - I'm thankful. Thank you so much for everything