@Rocky
Life is throwing you curveballs right now but there's always a way to make it through. The grief for your aunt will subside one day. You will have the friendships and relationships you deserve.
You are a good person making good use of your time- that's how I know that you will achieve peace soon.
Time heals all. I promise. You are earning a great degree and one day you'll be able to live as your truest self. But for now, you are in a tough situation. It's making you stronger, and smarter, and more capable. Please take it one day at a time and know that all of us in the base care about you. If you're on whataspp I'd be happy to exchange numbers.
There are a lot of things for you to think about regarding your future, but for now you need to focus on taking care of yourself and your mom. Your dad is what happens when you let life turn you bitter. Don't be like him. Embrace the pain you feel and don't be afraid to be vulnerable. As long as you're being healthy, do what you need to do