My first and only crush years ago: He seemed amazing to me, I couldn't stop watching him in every class we had together. I found it weird that someone that hot never had a girlfriend. One day I told a friend of mine I hated my crush so that they wouldn't know I caught a case of the gay. Unluckily for me, he overheard it and thought I hated him.
He was a cool guy and It would've been nice to be his friend at least, but I did something stupid like I usually do.
I still think about him sometimes, looked him up and he is still hot. Haven't had a crush since.
Just wanted to share an example of how I usually self sabotage my life.