rant
i'm scared every time i hear someone making noise in my direction when i'm in my dorm, or feel like something's in the room, because i feel like people are going to try to attack me again. i can't believe i had to move out of two different dorms because people won't just let me live my life.
hate crimes are up. i feel so afraid just because of my sexuality. i might have to end up being scared like this for the next four years. i have no idea.
one of my medications is gone. i have no idea when i'm going to be back to normal. i don't want to be screwed up again. i can't go back to how i was when i was younger.
i have a very high chance of failing one of my classes because i'm an idiot that can't do anything right. i shouldn't even try. all i do is screw up, every time.
a large number of the friends i made over the summer that were making me feel way better have ditched me. i don't even know what to do when i feel lonely anymore, because everyone seems to have just disappeared. it's like you finally get what you were looking for, and it slowly disappears and you can't do anything about it. i don't want to be alone anymore.
everything just keeps going wrong. i don't know why everything bad just always seems to happen all at once. i don't know if i can take much more of this.
