Idek if I already posted in this thread, but w/e.
I've dealt with many annoying things growing up (like most of y'all did too) and I feel like it's a combination of things. You can't just pick out your favorite bad aspect and try to make it as the worst one while ignoring the others. Everything is pretty hard.
I can't imagine what my whole family (uncles, cousins, grandma etc) would think if they ever find out and I honestly don't even know if I wanna tell them. But then what? I'm gonna pretend I won't ever get a girlfriend when they keep asking me that? It's exhausting to keep getting asked that by everyone. At least my friends don't mind it (which is actually different of being supportive but I take what I can get and don't complain). My mother acted real messy when I told her I hooked up with a boy recently and I honestly didn't see that coming, it was very hurtful.
It took me some time to find a person I liked and liked me back, but even then idk how everything will turn out eventually.
Yes, I try to stay positive, but these normal relationship stuff gets much harder to deal with because of many factors straight people don't have to deal with as we do. I mean, what if it doesn't end well? It's extremely difficult to put yourself out there if you're not majorly out of the closet. It's not just about finding someone you're interest in, you need to KNOW if they are gay
and then find out if they are attracted to you.
I think this ''finding love'' thing is what bothers me most, but there are other factors obvs.
like when you're straight male friend says is just as difficult for him to get a girlfriend then it is to you to find a boyfriend