Ok so I don't usually post, and I feel pretty tragic as it is sharing this on an internet forum. So no shade please.
So there's this guy who was in one of my classes at college. (High school I guess for you Americans) and throughout the WHOLE year I'd always catch him checking me out, it kind of became something I'd look forward to for the confidence boost etc. But tbh back then I wasn't really interested, and we only spoke a couple of times back then.
But about a month ago, when I first came back for summer. We were outside this club and he asked some girl to come over to talk to me (he's really shy) and we ended up talking for most of the night, and he was just saying the nicest things (and he's gotten really hot) so basically we ended up making out by the end of the night. And the same thing's happened a couple of times since.
Now we keep texting and calling but I don't know where it's going. When I thought it had fizzled out he texts me on my birthday and we start talking again. Then I saw him on Saturday night when we were out but we barely spoke, I think it's because we're both pretty socially awkward. I wanted to go over and talk to him but his friends were always there.
And what was worse he kept trying to call me that night but my phone had died, and now we've not spoken since.
I'm not usually this much of a hot mess with men, I'm so scared of rejection so I usually let guys initiate stuff with me. But right now it ain't happening because I think he's exactly the same.
Gawd I commend you if you actually read this essay, and I feel like a loser right now. But any advice would be appreciated.
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