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Discussion: Your Crush Thread 2.0
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I might use this thread, but my heart can't really take this **** with him anymore. 
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Originally posted by Scandal & Media
Welcome to the club. I'm so self absorbed.
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Whenever I see a hot guy looking at me I think he's interested in me
I am so delusional
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Originally posted by [Bask]
He is We went out twice |
At the least you know he's gay.
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Originally posted by M André
Whenever I see a hot guy looking at me I think he's interested in me
I am so delusional |
I've gazed at this unbelievably hot guy in my class all year, and recently he seems to have caught notice and realized how bad I want him.
So now he teases me 24/7 by flashing his abs or asking me to sit with him and he caresses my neck and legs during class and I swear it's f*** annoying cause I'm just supposed to sit there like I don't mind, or that I'm disgusted. 
I'm dying inside Thank god I finish school in a week.
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Do I have a crush right now?
Nah, not really. I'll check back later.
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Originally posted by wolf
I've gazed at this unbelievably hot guy in my class all year, and recently he seems to have caught notice and realized how bad I want him.
So now he teases me 24/7 by flashing his abs or asking me to sit with him and he caresses my neck and legs during class and I swear it's f*** annoying cause I'm just supposed to sit there like I don't mind, or that I'm disgusted.
I'm dying inside Thank god I finish school in a week. |
Are you sure he's straight? 
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The guy I like works at Michael Kors...He MIGHT have a little gay inside...right? That's a sign? lol
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Originally posted by wolf
I've gazed at this unbelievably hot guy in my class all year, and recently he seems to have caught notice and realized how bad I want him.
So now he teases me 24/7 by flashing his abs or asking me to sit with him and he caresses my neck and legs during class and I swear it's f*** annoying cause I'm just supposed to sit there like I don't mind, or that I'm disgusted.
I'm dying inside Thank god I finish school in a week. |
That doesn't sound like a straight guy...Does he play sports?
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One of my friends has a crush on my crush. OMG I want to cut her.
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Okay. Lemme do this 
So I never find guys or girls from my race (coloured) attractive, mostly because they can't commit to relationships, only interested in sex etc  which is why I find Black and White guys more attractive. Anyway...
So I met this guy at the drama club that I'm a part of. Physically he is attractive, but I paid him dust because he's coloured and he's straight, I think, but lately we really clicked on so many levels. We exchanged numbers (only because the Drama Club chairperson said we must, to keep in contact with other members for rehearsal purposes) . Anyway we've been texting, we've been texting *beyonce voice*  and the other day after rehearsals we spoke for a while. I was slightly depressed and he noticed, so he asked what's up. I made up some random story about my mom, but really I wasn't feeling the scene we rehearsed earlier on (I am a perfectionist and someone kept messing up my scene  )
I don't know how, but we found ourselves talking about relationships and ****. And I told him that I've been hurt before (he doesn't know I'm bi) - that I'm taking an indefinite break from relationships. I also may have brought up that I'm a Scorpio and that I have trust issues so he was like "the key is to be open for new friendships. You never know when you might meet a girl.....or guy who loves you" I legit died inside. I was about to **** bricks. I mean how did he know I swing both ways?  or was he just being neutral/open to the idea of me being gay?  I don't even remember what I said to him after that . He texted me yesterday asking if we could hang out so I just told him maybe after exams are done I'm a biT sceptical about the whole thing. Idk if he like-likes me or if its just friendship that he's looking for
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Ddd he's always looking at me. He has some weird hatred/obsession with homosexuals and those who love the gays. He's obsessed and I'm just like 
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Drama club? Gay.
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I want to share my story as well.
CAUTION: THIS **** IS LONG. SORRY.
I had just graduated from high school and was in a whole new town. I was just looking to experience new things and all that kind of ****. I ended up downloading Grindr. I wasn't out to anyone and it was just something to try. I decided to meet a few people after getting used to it and stuff. I wasn't out and never really had any experiences with guys so yeah.
I ended up talking to this guy on there. I found out that he goes to the university that I was going to go to. (I ended up not going, but that's a whole different story.) I decided to just talk to him. He didn't have a picture or anything. He was just someone to really pass the time with. He was someone who just had something about him. He was articulate. He was funny. He liked the same music as me. It was just great.
We talked that whole summer. It was probably one of the deepest friendships I had with someone. He's way into the closet. Deeper than I am. (I actually use a face picture.  ) He's in a fraternity. He's MASCULINE. He can't be gay. We live in the deep South. So his parents are homophobic. He just couldn't really come out to anyone. He basically just opened up to me. He told me about his eating disorder. He told me about his fears, his regrets, his future plans. It was just amazing.
Honestly, I am slightly attracted to him. Slightly not. He's cute, but I don't know. He has a beard though and it makes him so to me. It's mostly just his personality. He's the nicest guy that I have ever talked to. He cares so much. He cares so deep. It's just... something else when I talk to him.
ANYWAYS.... back to the story.
Once summer ends, he goes back to school. I end up staying here in this new town two hours from where I graduated and where he goes to school. At first, we would still talk. I would try seeing him when I went down to see my friends in college and some friends still in high school. He just wouldn't have it. One night, I got really drunk and messaged him on Facebook (we never added each other.) and he basically told me that I was a f***** and that he couldn't talk to me anymore. I was shocked. Oh, god. I was destroyed inside. I ended up deleting his number and promised myself that I wouldn't have anything to do with him anymore.
I ended up lying to myself though because ****. I thought about him all of the time. He and I were such good friends. I mean, we never really were together, but we talked all day. All night. We talked deep ****. It was just weird not doing that anymore. I was shocked. Shocked that he would choose his life that he HATES over talking to me. I don't know. It was just gross. I was so angry, but I was so hurt.
Anyways, it had been months since we had last talked. I didn't think I was going to hear from him again. I started getting some calls from a number that I didn't know. I answered, but no one said anything back to me. ( ) I didn't think anything of it. Then they texted me a few days later. It didn't last anywhere once I told them I didn't know who it was. Then they messaged me one last time. Telling me that it was him. That he missed me and that he was sorry.
omg. I shouldn't have done it, but ****. I texted back with the SWIFTNESS. We have managed to rekindle our friendship. We've ended up snappchatting. Texting. Basically this whole summer has been the repeat of last summer. It's bad to say, but I never actually met him in person. Only because I was scared to do it one day and he would ***** out the other. It was embarrassing looking back. Anyways, I have a week where I am finally going to be alone in my apartment. So I think that we're actually going to meet. I am just like.. I don't have the words.
I am just so scared that the thing that happened last summer is going to happen again. I can't let that happen again. He actually told me that it probably will though. We were having one of our classic talks when he was drunk. He told me that he was probably going to disappear from my life. From everyone's life. Just move away. So he can be happy. So he can finally be who he wants to be. Honestly, I am okay with that. He is someone I care about. I want him to be happy more than anything. I want him to finally have the peace he ****ing deserves. He did tell me that he will never forget me. He said that I am the person he thinks about the most. He told me that he ended up crying that night because he just felt so bad about everything.
omg. It's just bleh. We are never going to be anything. Our lives just won't be able to let it happen. It sucks, but as is life. I just wish that it could.
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Originally posted by Flame
I want to share my story as well.
CAUTION: THIS **** IS LONG. SORRY.
I had just graduated from high school and was in a whole new town. I was just looking to experience new things and all that kind of ****. I ended up downloading Grindr. I wasn't out to anyone and it was just something to try. I decided to meet a few people after getting used to it and stuff. I wasn't out and never really had any experiences with guys so yeah.
I ended up talking to this guy on there. I found out that he goes to the university that I was going to go to. (I ended up not going, but that's a whole different story.) I decided to just talk to him. He didn't have a picture or anything. He was just someone to really pass the time with. He was someone who just had something about him. He was articulate. He was funny. He liked the same music as me. It was just great.
We talked that whole summer. It was probably one of the deepest friendships I had with someone. He's way into the closet. Deeper than I am. (I actually use a face picture. ) He's in a fraternity. He's MASCULINE. He can't be gay. We live in the deep South. So his parents are homophobic. He just couldn't really come out to anyone. He basically just opened up to me. He told me about his eating disorder. He told me about his fears, his regrets, his future plans. It was just amazing.
Honestly, I am slightly attracted to him. Slightly not. He's cute, but I don't know. He has a beard though and it makes him so to me. It's mostly just his personality. He's the nicest guy that I have ever talked to. He cares so much. He cares so deep. It's just... something else when I talk to him.
ANYWAYS.... back to the story.
Once summer ends, he goes back to school. I end up staying here in this new town two hours from where I graduated and where he goes to school. At first, we would still talk. I would try seeing him when I went down to see my friends in college and some friends still in high school. He just wouldn't have it. One night, I got really drunk and messaged him on Facebook (we never added each other.) and he basically told me that I was a f***** and that he couldn't talk to me anymore. I was shocked. Oh, god. I was destroyed inside. I ended up deleting his number and promised myself that I wouldn't have anything to do with him anymore.
I ended up lying to myself though because ****. I thought about him all of the time. He and I were such good friends. I mean, we never really were together, but we talked all day. All night. We talked deep ****. It was just weird not doing that anymore. I was shocked. Shocked that he would choose his life that he HATES over talking to me. I don't know. It was just gross. I was so angry, but I was so hurt.
Anyways, it had been months since we had last talked. I didn't think I was going to hear from him again. I started getting some calls from a number that I didn't know. I answered, but no one said anything back to me. ( ) I didn't think anything of it. Then they texted me a few days later. It didn't last anywhere once I told them I didn't know who it was. Then they messaged me one last time. Telling me that it was him. That he missed me and that he was sorry.
omg. I shouldn't have done it, but ****. I texted back with the SWIFTNESS. We have managed to rekindle our friendship. We've ended up snappchatting. Texting. Basically this whole summer has been the repeat of last summer. It's bad to say, but I never actually met him in person. Only because I was scared to do it one day and he would ***** out the other. It was embarrassing looking back. Anyways, I have a week where I am finally going to be alone in my apartment. So I think that we're actually going to meet. I am just like.. I don't have the words.
I am just so scared that the thing that happened last summer is going to happen again. I can't let that happen again. He actually told me that it probably will though. We were having one of our classic talks when he was drunk. He told me that he was probably going to disappear from my life. From everyone's life. Just move away. So he can be happy. So he can finally be who he wants to be. Honestly, I am okay with that. He is someone I care about. I want him to be happy more than anything. I want him to finally have the peace he ****ing deserves. He did tell me that he will never forget me. He said that I am the person he thinks about the most. He told me that he ended up crying that night because he just felt so bad about everything.
omg. It's just bleh. We are never going to be anything. Our lives just won't be able to let it happen. It sucks, but as is life. I just wish that it could. |
That's so beautiful but sad. I hope everything works out though. It is really tough living i the closet and he's pretty much like me in the sense that I want to move away so that I can live the way I want. Don't give up hope though. Something may happen between you two eventually. 
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I know, I know. It's just rough. I don't know what to do. It's tragic, but I guess life isn't supposed to be easy. He's still a virgin too. He talked to me about how he wanted me to be his first which was so :') to me. I don't know. He's not just some guy I have sex with in my apartment's parking lot. So I want him to be someone special. I want it to mean something. It would even if we did it the first second of being together, but yeah. I want to really just have a nice time with him. You know?
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Originally posted by Flame
I know, I know. It's just rough. I don't know what to do. It's tragic, but I guess life isn't supposed to be easy. He's still a virgin too. He talked to me about how he wanted me to be his first which was so :') to me. I don't know. He's not just some guy I have sex with in my apartment's parking lot. So I want him to be someone special. I want it to mean something. It would even if we did it the first second of being together, but yeah. I want to really just have a nice time with him. You know?
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Awe! 
I'm shocked that he's a virgin though. Not that many of us roaming around these days 
Mess at the parking lot comment. What have you been doing?
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Originally posted by Flame
I want to share my story as well.
CAUTION: THIS **** IS LONG. SORRY.
I had just graduated from high school and was in a whole new town. I was just looking to experience new things and all that kind of ****. I ended up downloading Grindr. I wasn't out to anyone and it was just something to try. I decided to meet a few people after getting used to it and stuff. I wasn't out and never really had any experiences with guys so yeah.
I ended up talking to this guy on there. I found out that he goes to the university that I was going to go to. (I ended up not going, but that's a whole different story.) I decided to just talk to him. He didn't have a picture or anything. He was just someone to really pass the time with. He was someone who just had something about him. He was articulate. He was funny. He liked the same music as me. It was just great.
We talked that whole summer. It was probably one of the deepest friendships I had with someone. He's way into the closet. Deeper than I am. (I actually use a face picture. ) He's in a fraternity. He's MASCULINE. He can't be gay. We live in the deep South. So his parents are homophobic. He just couldn't really come out to anyone. He basically just opened up to me. He told me about his eating disorder. He told me about his fears, his regrets, his future plans. It was just amazing.
Honestly, I am slightly attracted to him. Slightly not. He's cute, but I don't know. He has a beard though and it makes him so to me. It's mostly just his personality. He's the nicest guy that I have ever talked to. He cares so much. He cares so deep. It's just... something else when I talk to him.
ANYWAYS.... back to the story.
Once summer ends, he goes back to school. I end up staying here in this new town two hours from where I graduated and where he goes to school. At first, we would still talk. I would try seeing him when I went down to see my friends in college and some friends still in high school. He just wouldn't have it. One night, I got really drunk and messaged him on Facebook (we never added each other.) and he basically told me that I was a f***** and that he couldn't talk to me anymore. I was shocked. Oh, god. I was destroyed inside. I ended up deleting his number and promised myself that I wouldn't have anything to do with him anymore.
I ended up lying to myself though because ****. I thought about him all of the time. He and I were such good friends. I mean, we never really were together, but we talked all day. All night. We talked deep ****. It was just weird not doing that anymore. I was shocked. Shocked that he would choose his life that he HATES over talking to me. I don't know. It was just gross. I was so angry, but I was so hurt.
Anyways, it had been months since we had last talked. I didn't think I was going to hear from him again. I started getting some calls from a number that I didn't know. I answered, but no one said anything back to me. ( ) I didn't think anything of it. Then they texted me a few days later. It didn't last anywhere once I told them I didn't know who it was. Then they messaged me one last time. Telling me that it was him. That he missed me and that he was sorry.
omg. I shouldn't have done it, but ****. I texted back with the SWIFTNESS. We have managed to rekindle our friendship. We've ended up snappchatting. Texting. Basically this whole summer has been the repeat of last summer. It's bad to say, but I never actually met him in person. Only because I was scared to do it one day and he would ***** out the other. It was embarrassing looking back. Anyways, I have a week where I am finally going to be alone in my apartment. So I think that we're actually going to meet. I am just like.. I don't have the words.
I am just so scared that the thing that happened last summer is going to happen again. I can't let that happen again. He actually told me that it probably will though. We were having one of our classic talks when he was drunk. He told me that he was probably going to disappear from my life. From everyone's life. Just move away. So he can be happy. So he can finally be who he wants to be. Honestly, I am okay with that. He is someone I care about. I want him to be happy more than anything. I want him to finally have the peace he ****ing deserves. He did tell me that he will never forget me. He said that I am the person he thinks about the most. He told me that he ended up crying that night because he just felt so bad about everything.
omg. It's just bleh. We are never going to be anything. Our lives just won't be able to let it happen. It sucks, but as is life. I just wish that it could. |
Omg it seems like you truly felt for him.
It must really difficult facing that your own family won't accept you. I don't blame anyone that is in the closet because it's still hard to be gay/bi in our society.
I hope everything turns out fine for you and for him.
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@Saint Bey: I was too. He told me his sexual history, but yeah. I would have thought he would have done it during the school year. He's in a frat. He's always drunk and horny. So I thought something would have happened. I respect him though.
Nothing. Am virginal. 
@Andre: Thank you. I was so scared of coming out to my parents as they're both devoted Baptists, but they ended up accepting me. Which I am so thankful for. Although... they choose to believe it's a phase and I'll get past it. Since... I'm so good with girls and **** like that. ( ) They mean well though. I hope he has the courage to do the same one day. I don't want to push him, but him living his life unhappy hurts me.
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