Well...this wasn't really hurtful, but it did catch me off guard and left me standing still for a minute. I remember it was the day I went to buy TFM after it came out, I was in Target, and I saw these yellow and green glasses I liked. I was with my mom and her friend who tagged along (our neighbor). I wanted to buy the glasses, and the neighbor was like "well I don't think they're for girls"..and then I heard my mom say "Good, I don't want no gay son."
I'm not gay, well I'm sure I'm not, but thinking how she could be so ignorant and especially over a pair of yellow freakin glasses kind of shocked me for a moment! Like "is this really my mom saying this?"..Even typing this right now just gives me this weird feeling.And wtf does me wearing bright yellow & green glasses have to do with being gay?!
Well she seems like she's open-minded as she's met one of my friends who's openly gay before, and other than that what I heard that day it doesn't seem like she has a problem in general with gay people (well I hope not)..I dunno, maybe staying up making thanksgiving dinner the night before made her a little kookoo that day.
I was in 8th grade, I wasn't exactly the "tough" one, I was friendly with everyone, the one who always helped people with their problems, the one that was there if you needed. & I guess they all thought I was a ****** since I was more of the sensitive one. I was too nice back then, but if it was me now, they would've been screaming for their lives. About 3 people tried to jump me, & this was after I had decided to work out for a whole summer, & I beat the **** out of them. I only talk to 2 people that talked to me after the party & convinced me to not do anything stupid.
Really the only thing people, well my friends, say to me that's annoying rather than hurtful is because I always have a steady girlfriend and don't sleep around with random girls when we go to clubs or whatnot, like they do all the time, they steadily call me gay or pansy...I takes it with a grain of salt though
Many people tried to hurt me in the past, but I remain unbothered. At the end, I'll be the last one standing, laughing my ass off to those bitches who insulted me.
When i was about 12, i went to my first boy/girl party, i was so excited. When i got there, there was this table of the people from my class. I was very shy because i wasn't really popular, but sited anyway. For a cople of minutes it was nice, i was talking with a boy and suddenly this stupid popular/bully shouted: WHO LET YOU SIT IN HERE? Everyone stared at me, even the people i talked to. I felt soooo embarrassed and humiliated, like i was trash or something. So i left the table, and stayed alone through the whole party, and i culdn't left because i was embarrassed to tell my dada why i was leaving the party so early. It sucked.
But today i know that the bully is now fat and still in high school, while i'm umbothered in college. Karma is really a bad bitch.
Well...I have a lot to tell...My HIV ****, drugs and how they destroyed a lot in my life, my violent parents who hate me, being gay in general, me being homeless for a long time and so on.
But I never was the "Oh I'm so poor"-type of guy. I always look on the bright side and all these things made me strong over the years. I'm funny, nice and special...And I've learned how to deal with those problems.
I'm glad to live my life how It is and I wouldn't change anything because I'm proud of myself and my past...and I can't wait for the future...because I know It'll be golden.
Love you all, guys. Great storys...you're all brave and special. God bless you and the people you love.
Well...I have a lot to tell...My HIV ****, drugs and how they destroyed a lot in my life, my violent parents who hate me, being gay in general, me being homeless for a long time and so on.
But I never was the "Oh I'm so poor"-type of guy. I always look on the bright side and all these things made me strong over the years. I'm funny, nice and special...And I've learned how to deal with those problems.
I'm glad to live my life how It is and I wouldn't change anything because I'm proud of myself and my past...and I can't wait for the future...because I know It'll be golden.
Love you all, guys. Great storys...you're all brave and special. God bless you and the people you love.
You're so strong and inspiring. Reading story like all these on this topic make me realise life is a gift and we should never give it up
Well...I have a lot to tell...My HIV ****, drugs and how they destroyed a lot in my life, my violent parents who hate me, being gay in general, me being homeless for a long time and so on.
But I never was the "Oh I'm so poor"-type of guy. I always look on the bright side and all these things made me strong over the years. I'm funny, nice and special...And I've learned how to deal with those problems.
I'm glad to live my life how It is and I wouldn't change anything because I'm proud of myself and my past...and I can't wait for the future...because I know It'll be golden.
Love you all, guys. Great storys...you're all brave and special. God bless you and the people you love.
I hope this isn't blunt or overly personal, but, you have HIV?
Well...I have a lot to tell...My HIV ****, drugs and how they destroyed a lot in my life, my violent parents who hate me, being gay in general, me being homeless for a long time and so on.
But I never was the "Oh I'm so poor"-type of guy. I always look on the bright side and all these things made me strong over the years. I'm funny, nice and special...And I've learned how to deal with those problems.
I'm glad to live my life how It is and I wouldn't change anything because I'm proud of myself and my past...and I can't wait for the future...because I know It'll be golden.
Love you all, guys. Great storys...you're all brave and special. God bless you and the people you love.
There you go sis, that's the spirit. I don't regret any **** tha happened in my life, because every bad thing made even more strong, brave and proud of who i am.
I wish someday i'll have the courage from people like you to open my heart and be who i am. It's hard and will be hard, but someday i'll do it.
I know most of you are not a big fan of religion, but even people saying that God don't love me, i don't belive it. I know hes's looking out for me and for all of us who suffer in this life, i know he loves each and everyone of you.
When I was younger I would always be called gay/******/etc. I would always defend it (still closet), but they would still continue calling me it. Now, I'm an adult (first year in college) and people still call me it.. But I ignore it. But because I keep ignoring it.. It actually got worse, because now my friends are suspecting that I'm gay I guess it's a lose/lose situation.
You're so strong and inspiring. Reading story like all these on this topic make me realise life is a gift and we should never give it up
Thank you. Yeah...besides all those funny stan-wars and stuff we are all people with feelings, problems and a past. Keep your head high, honey.
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Originally posted by NE.
I hope this isn't blunt or overly personal, but, you have HIV?
Yeah...I'm HIV positive since May, 2008. If you got questions or want to share thoughts, feel free to PM me.
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Originally posted by Gui Blackout
There you go sis, that's the spirit. I don't regret any **** tha happened in my life, because every bad thing made even more strong, brave and proud of who i am.
I wish someday i'll have the courage from people like you to open my heart and be who i am. It's hard and will be hard, but someday i'll do it.
I know most of you are not a big fan of religion, but even people saying that God don't love me, i don't belive it. I know hes's looking out for me and for all of us who suffer in this life, i know he loves each and everyone of you.
I hate religion, because of the people who take It too serious or handle It the wrong way....but in hard times I found myself praying on the floor...I said: "God, we both know that I don't believe in you. And we both know that I'm not the best person you created...but I need you now. Show me, that I'm wrong and that you're out there...please help me and show me the right way."
You know Gui...we all go through life, like a karate kid.
one of the worst thing that someone told me is that I was a threat to her's relationship with her boyfriend because I'm gay... it really sucks
or when a guy u have a crush on tells u this:
or when everybody hates u and u are bullyied because of ur ill...
It sucks and I know what most of u suffered
But when U have a "bomb" in ur head that can explode if u dont be carefull, it can kill u (in this case me)
I have a serious illness in my ears that is very similar to cancer.
This illness puts deaf, without talk or kill urself and I almost suffered them all
Although this is xtremely bad it is also a good way for me to remember that i should never give up from myself and from the people i love and also is my way to stand up and live my life the way I want to.
Im sick of everybody trying to change me or cure me when they are actually damaging me even more.
So let me go and let me be me cause there is no ill or person that will stop me!
And for all of u atrlers a Big hug cause I wasnt the only one who suffered but ended up winning