I feel so much better today. I still obviously love and care about him, and hope in my heart that he comes around and realizes he's making a big mistake. Because I know deep down that no one will care about him like I do, I still want to pay for his anniversary present that I could only give him 15 towards, and I still want to take him out to his favorite restaurant. Even if we don't get back together I want to do that stuff. I also think this is a good break for me too, because I am honestly really clingy and not talking to him for days and weeks on end will make it easier for me to go for hours without talking to him if he comes around.
At the same time, I'm also focusing on myself, I have my job interview tomorrow. I also am expecting him to move on, that way I can help myself move on but also keep the feelings accessible incase he does come around. If he doesn't come around, at least I'll be halfway there, so it won't hurt as bad as if I moped and waited.
Listening to Azealia today has really helped too, the only songs I listened to were Heavy Metal & Reflective because it makes me feel like a bad bitch, and invincible, and Liquorice just made me happy in general because it's such a fun song.
Sorry for the long rant, I just have so many feelings. Today is the first day I haven't cried since it happened.
and I added Harlem Shake 
Seventeen is not eligible I'm afraid..