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Originally posted by Dinosauer
So I've just spent the weekend in Sapporo and I actually think I might have fallen in love. I met this guy at this foreigner conference thing and he was really drunk but flirting up a storm with me (and he is GORGEOUS and STYLISH.  ) and he pretty much was like being uber keen the whole night. Unfortunately I didn't know my way around the city and there were a million tagger-ons that loved him, but didn't know me so it was a bit awkward. Anyway we finally got to a raving club and we were both drunk but him far more than I, anyway we started making-out hardcore like literally all over the club and the poor Japanese were eyeballing the dear life out of us. Some girls even like started like cheering and clapping and even though I was a bit  about that side of things, he was serving some quality lip/tongue and I was there for it.
Anyway he, and annoying his dumb female friend, came back and crashed at the place we were crashing at and literally was right beside us so we couldn't do anything other than subtle groping which was boring but we didn't get home until like 4.30am anyway. When we woke up I expected him to a) not be keen or b) literally not even remember me, so when he came for cuddles I was like  ! And we spent all morning cuddling and kissing and just let the damn friend feel awkward, and we got breakfast and walked around and held hands and we just had this connection. We have the same birthday which is cool, and our interests are different but in the same field.
I had to drive back early in the afternoon and I was depressed and we were like holding hands all day (not something I normally do - but I'm in such a weird country and it was a foreign city for me so whatever I let loose). Eventually we had to say bye and I was gutted, but we'd both acknowledged how sucky it was. He literally lives like a 6-7 hours drive from me which is literally devastating. The entire ride home were messaging each-other and he was saying how he's never met anyone like me, and IDK it's just so confusing and heartbreaking.
Now I'm home in my tiny corner of Hokkaido and I'm really depressed, lonely and literally just want to cry about how unfair the distance is. |
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Originally posted by Dinosauer
I just remembered when I was skyping my crush last night, I asked him if he loved Brittany (aka. the name of the girl whose place we crashed at on Saturday night) and he was like "Yeah I love "Toxic"!" and he was embarrassed the minute he realized but I had to confess I was literally bopping to "Passenger" when his skype call came through, and all was well. Soul mates I'm telling you!
But tell me sistren. Is it normal we met four days ago and this weekend he's coming to stay with me for four days, for the an entire long weekend? I'm actually really scared of falling for him. That's gonna make my life really complicated. Plus my ex is being really needy right now and even though we've had a great friendship, I really need to cull this before it turns into something dramatic. He said he wanted me tell him if I meet someone cause he couldn't stand for me to keep it as a secret, but he's being so emotional lately. Not that I owe him anything, but for the sake of remaining "friends" I should probably be honest. Will see how this weekend goes. Gawd, what if it's an awkward mess and my crush goes home early.  Considering he's coming for four god damn days and he doesn't even know me, I wouldn't blame him. |
Okay time for my official crush update! So I met the guy on Saturday 26th April (aka. weekend before last) at a meet-up thing for all the foreign assistant English teachers in Hokkaido, Japan and he's from Canada but Chinese and so f-ing gorgeous and cute. Anyway we were texting for the rest of the week and since last weekend was a four-day weekend, and we never get holidays, he decided he liked me enough and would go out on a limb and come and stay with me. I live in the middle of nowhere, and like 6-hours away so he had to take a train and a bus ride and then a two hour car-ride with me to get to my house which is obviously traumatic and life ruining, but he did.
We get on so well despite knowing each-other so little, and during the drive home we were pretty much just announcing that we wanted to get with each other. So on the way I had to awkwardly be like "well I don't really have any 'supplies' at home right now" which being the saint that he is, he offered to go into a store and buy which we did. Anyway at mine that night we both got really wasted for no good reason and stumbled down to the 7-Eleven (I was singing the opening line from pop ICON Bonnie McKee's "American Girl" in my head obviously) and bought dinner. I have to like NOT out myself cause I have no idea what the repercussions would be in this silly little Japanese town, but we were being pretty obvious. Gawd. Anyway the next day there happened to be another wee meet-up BBQ about 1hr30mins from me and I showed up with him and it was obvious as sin that him and I were an item and not "fast friends".
So yeah that BBQ was fun, and then Monday we just hung out and got coffee. His Japanese is so good so having him around makes my life so much easier, and he can read kanji well (cause he speaks both Mandarin and Cantonese) so that was iconic and yeah it was just adorable. On Tuesday when I had to see him off I had to drive for like 2hrs again to get him to his bus stop, us both spending the entire drive touching each-other and saying how sad we were and then I hugged him as he hopped on the bus and now there's no real date set for when i'll see him next. Probably not until the end of the month, and that'd be two nights tops. So basically I met a flawless guy, had an instant connection and got on well and naturally every circumstance is against us. Culturally, geographically, temperately (winter is so harsh it'd be almost impossible to visit then). So yeah, happy to have met him and to have had a great weekend together but now left lonely and depressed.
How's u?
you couldn't be more right 
I can see why he wouldn't want to talk about it 
