I try to decolonize my mind, through CBT (cognitive behavioural therapy) and other psychiatric tactics. In some respects I'm reproducing medicine, but my point is that psychiatry has helped me move on from painful experiences. It's mixed feelings as I am located in Westernity.
I PM hot guys after I manage to find their IGs or pics of them somewhere and tell them nasty things that they're probably not even into and have text sex chat with guys from my country. I feel like I'm wasting people's time and degrading and embarrassing myself, all for nothing that's actually about to happen anytime soon, (in fact, I'm a virgin), but I still do it anyway.
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