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Originally posted by Elle♥
He seems to think everyone who has sex had Aids.
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Well who am I supposed to trust? I sit here on the internet and read about articles how it's increasing among a certain population and it's only statistically shown it's not stopping or slowing down and I get paranoid.
Remember 2012, end of the world?
Once December 21st rolls around, you think I'm going to sit calm here? No.
If the internet lies, then it lies, but I read it and I believe it. What am I supposed to do? Trust guys and sleep around? Even so, that's not how I was raised. If I wasn't scared of AIDS, I would still not do it because my Mom raised me right. I still would want less than a few sexual partners by the time I die. I wasn't raised in a barn. Sorry.
I was never properly educated about AIDS, I just take in the information I read on the internet, but it never is 100% accurate. So instead, I live in fear. That's why I haven't even fully accepted my sexuality. I deny who I am. I still sometimes wish I was born normal and straight because of media. And the sad thing is I'm not even young anymore, I'm a young adult. No one at such a point in their life should be in denial of who they are. It's quite sad. I think I need to go to therapy and let my feelings out about being gay/aids/relationships, etc. and just try to figure out who I was really meant to be. I'm too kind hearted, down to earth nice to live my life in fear. I need to be happy with who I am.
Sex is a taboo and I just don't want no part of it.