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Originally posted by TheLlamaNetwork
So pretty much today I took the ACT .. Us jrs who took it were told to only bring a calculator and pencil.. So we only had 5th and 6th period today.. My 6th period teacher decides that even tho Jrs were supposed to have the day off (btw all 4 grade levels are in this class) she makes us still take the test + turn in a folder.. So I get a 0 on the folder and fail the test.. That was Spanish class.. Then I get the news that I'm kicked off the bowling team for the rest of the week until I get one of my three F's to a D or higher.. See I've been trying to finish a test that would get that one F up to a C since last Thursday. Friday we got out early so I couldn't take it. Monday we got a snow day. Today I had the ACT.. So really it's not my fought that it's an F.. Other classes my teachers I think hate me.. Don't know why tho.. So then I'm on the bus sitting at the back and every one of my friends decide that they should sit with the back stabbing friend then me.. This is the 155277933775 time they've done this now.. So I'm walking home and I start to break down and cry.. I felt like nobody cares about me.. Nobody cares about what I do.. I'm just useless in life.. I try hard at everything I do and all I get is an "ok cool" or an "ok good you finished that".. No body that I know cares about my videos that I work hard on.. Why have I wasted so many days and nights and hours on it if nobody that I know cares about it.. And who do I kid myself, I'm never going to be a pro bowler like I want to be.. I'm just not good enough.. I've already screwed up high school by failing lots of classes (I have ADHD so I have a hard time in school, but I'm really smart too tho..) .. No college will ever accept me.. Only way I'd get in is with a good ACT score, and I prob screwed that up too.. I was ready to put a knife in my chest.. And right now all expect the knife thing I still feel like.. My life's just horrible.. Judas is my depressed song and it's been on non-stop since I got home..  |
Listen to me.
You are
not worthless. From what I've seen of you on this thread, in fact, you're a beautiful person with high aspirations and that alone is something that so very few people can claim these days. That, along with the fact that you put so much into what you do--whether they are videos, friends, bowling, or your grades--makes you important and invaluable to this world.
Please, by all means, cry until you feel better, and listen to a lot of Lady Gaga, and then lay down for the rest of the night and go to sleep and you will feel better. At some point while you are doing all that, think about who your real friends are.
Friends stick with you no matter what, they do not abandon you--and those who do are not friends, they are associates who leech off of your company at best. If you decide that they aren't friends, forget about them. Don't necessarily disown them, if that would be too much, simply distance yourself from them and find better friends. Better friends present themselves, if you just live your life and be yourself. If you decide that they are good friends, then they should be good enough that you can talk to them about how you feel, and they will be able to help you and will be more than willing to do so.
The world needs caring, aspirational people like you. Do yourself and others a favor and don't forget that.
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Originally posted by TheLlamaNetwork
Thanks all  it's just really hard right now with everything going on.. Oh did I say I've been coughing nonstop since Saturday.. It hurts to cough too.. But that will gO away soon.. I'm just glad I have people like you all to talk to me and such.. You don't know how much it means to me <3 |
Do you have any medicine for that cough?
But from what you typed actually made me smile Alot.. Thanks 
